Not devolving just fucking around. Let me ask you this: you ever have people meet you and think you are just a wonderful human being? They form some strong opinion of you that really had non of your concious doings: ie. They just happened on to your world at a certain point in a certain side displayed dominance. Now for me, I don't like that. Because from that point on, anything less is - letting them down. You start not being real because you have to keep up with that image. Finally the you that IS you comes out. And then it begins.. When I play music I may play something really catchy first- but I reserve my best. So... You see the good the bad and the ugly- but first the ugly(if what ever situation neccesitates it). Nobody is let down and I don't have to keep up any false impression to please anyone! If you like it cool. If you don't , can't say you're surprised. Too many people false advertise. I basically say what I think and feel(plus reserve the right to change those feelings). If you get the WHOLE of my being then jokes are more difficult to be misconstrued as insults or bad attitudes. Much is lost to text in net situations. If I chose for someone to know me it's "here's my weakness, my strength,my opinions, my likes/dislikes and hates. As with all human's I may at times speak too much from emotion. World trends as I see represented here/ mass ways of thinking disturb me. One example is an issue of racism: the mass porjected thought is if a white man says the "n" word, well then it's cut and dry he's a racist. That's bullshit in most sincere honest opinion. The current climate wants to put us all in categories and catalogue us(or have us do that to each other). The truth is racism is all relative. I can call anyone any name I want. I may or may not feel like I am above them/better. And the name/slur I chose to use had only a bearing on the moment it was used(for the user). This is one reason many don't want to join. They don't want to be defined in any category for changing personal opinions or rash quickly posted emotional thoughts put into text. Goddamn I wrote a book.