I will agree with you there. I meditate almost three hours a day and would definitely say that, although I can't possibly fully understand God, I DEFINITELY believe in him/her. I also believe in Jesus and that he is A son of god. As am I. As are you. But the death/sacrifice thing never really got explained well enough for me to understand it. The God I have come to understand uses the elements and forces around us to create this universe. All things are bound by God's creative laws. The sacrifice of Jesus leading to all of our sins being forgiven jumps outside of the laws our God uses to hold this Universe together. There is no correlation. It is basically one statement trying to be connected to another statement. Nothing, within the realm of reason, has seemed to explain this crucifixion thing. All I see is a man that rose above the bindings of the flesh and understood God's workings so perfectly that he could actually make them work for him: i.e. walking on water, curing illness. But his teachings actually fit better if he was trying to explain to people that the only way to rise above the suffering of physical bonds was to seek the truth of our father and ascend just like Jesus: "The only way to salvation is through me".