Déjà vu

thank you, that means a lot to me. he's been sick for a very long time, and this has been so drawn out. my mom wanted him to pass at home, but it just became too much for her to handle. i'll see him tomorrow am. he is trying to hang on on so hard....sorry, i cann't talk about it. it's just so hard to watch. it reminds me of what a relief it was when my grandfather did finally pass, a weight was lifted off everyones shoulders, because it was so hard to watch the last couple of days. i don't want to think about it right now, but had to say something, becuase i can't stop thinking about it.

your mother will need a lot of physical, mental and a lot emotional support!

what is the best way to stay in the middle? has that always been your natural place? or did you have to work to get there?

in some situation my dyslexia act up. this appears to be one of them. i don't mind listening if you need someone to talk to about anything! lol

i have always been in the middle of most everything!

being the glue is the best way to be operate in the middle! lol

i'm going to try my best to be helpful. she is a lot stronger than me, and she is a medical professional, and has been preparing for this, but i guess you're never ready.

identifying whats needed and filling that need is another way to operate in the middle! lol

i just enjoy talking to you in general. i always worry i say the wrong things, you know, i'm not very smart, i'm a high school drop out, only made it to 11th grade! i just like being around you.

i'm sure you know what to do! lol

how do i become more glue like?

i think you are very smart, it's probably one of the reason i bother with you! lol

identifying what's needed for myself has always been a strugle. how do you know what you need? i feel like i'm better at knowing what others need than what i need. it's easier to see other people than it is to see yourself.

becoming glue like is knowing when and how to bond without being overtly clingy! you have to know other peoples boundaries! lol

i wish you would bother be more.

i wish i didn't like you so much sometimes.

my dreams were so intense last night i couldn't remember them, but my sleep was the most restful feeling it's felt in a month. when i slept for just 20 minutes it felt like i had been sleeping hours.

if you wish to know yourself, identify the traits you bring out in other people! they almost always treat you the way you treat them. you can see yourself clearly in others! lol

after a while i always wear thin on others! lol

i'm like a tongue stuck to an icy pole sometimes

youre not alone! me am a cactus! lol

you've never wore thin to me. maybe i'm just lonely

youre just to easy going! and you can't figure out why everyone is not like you! lol

cactus are the best!

i always say things that offend people, but i don't mean to be offensive, i'm just too brutally honest and i say what i mean without sugar coating things. my family just thinks it's my autism, that i don't understand social boundries and what is and isn't appropriate to say.

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why arn't people more easy going? i find i expend a lot less energy being easy going, now if i could just figure out how to stay in the middle better, and not be so extreme with everything!

i don't get to interact with a whole lot of people lately. i wish the gym would start doing classes soon, i love teaching, i love interacting with strangers, and it is probably how i can see myslef most clearly.

my favorite thing to do is make other people sincerrely laugh, but not like haha laugh, real laughter.

what traits do you bring out best in others?

some think they can move mountains? lol

you need to understand this is glp and nobody can trust nobody, even me! lol

people are to wound up in themselves to be easy going! lol

being extreme is a learned coping mechanism! lol

it depends on whom i'm dealing with, on glp probably strong emotional uncertainty! lol

yes, cactus can move mountains, i've seen it.

i worte the craziest book after eating a cactus once. somehow it predicted the future.

i'm not sure i really know what PLG is. i know it's a predatory place. but that's it. i'm probably foolish, i don't trust anyone else here, but i fully trust you? why? i can just tell that i can trust you. you have the trust vibration.

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