Déjà vu

629-630 2015

masturbating dream

house of witches "A, B, C, D" so they cant get me. had to lock myself in my room. ppl loading into my closet to transport.

teach ppl how to progress from headstand to hatstand. i could take the class bc i wasn't teaching anymore. was in front yard of 5E.

history video game hand held in library, was with KC and MC. KC and i both have on green rain jackets. video game is a handheld device that has three parts, a screen, a keyboard, and another part. looked like a beet growing out of it, had to enter a # sequence to get it started.

not sure what i'm doing here.

i sleep as many hours per day as possible because i think that's what i'm supposed to do.

it's all i have the energy for.

baptism this suunday

the 2nd sunday of the month

say something like every sunday is a baptism

smoked in the circle in the track and field field.

we're trying to catch some guy

he was getting away, i took the pipe and hit it as quickly as i could

guy asks me if i like jazz music

"lonely heart"

girl says my name and then picks me up, was on the trail, she's talking about the way i think compared to some other girl

@ the airport with RD, hidden bags up in the rafters. (a piece of code about members here) - was written into a book, all these different theories written by a guy.

children told to get down, lie down, as they come down the conveyor belt. i'm on the conveyor belt going the opposite direction.

hello

he lol!

just wanted to say hi, ill go back to bed for another 26 hours

oh hi, thanks for saying hi.

how are you?

am i actually a dude?

youre a difficult one to get a fix on so i just concentrate on myself! lol

i don't believe i'm consciously intentionally trying to be difficult to fix on. i want to be simple. i am quite simple.

do you like jazz music?

what's the best strategy for concentrating on yourself?

do i need concentration first?

sorry my computer is being a little slow

mentally youre a fast gear changer! that may be your mutant skill! lol

con·cen·tra·tion
/ˌkänsənˈtrāSH(ə)n/

noun
1.
the action or power of focusing one's attention or mental effort.

relaxation! and the ability to easily drift! lol

i don't even think thoughts. how can i be a fast gear changer if i don't even think?

i don't find jazz relaxing! lol

the ability to think thoughts is compulsive!

the ocd is being unable to turn it off! lol

how do you like to relax?

the only time i feel relaxed is when i'm in the pool. the last time i got in the pool was march 16th. the pools might might open up here this upcoming week.

your ability to alter your consciousness by entering a dream state easily translates into an ability to switch gears in irl! lol

when i was a kid i would have fits of rage if someone got in the way of me doing one of my routines.

doesn't ocd form because a lack of regularity and stability in ones life?

keeping my mind occupied on any given task is mentality relaxing for me! lol

ocd is a distraction disorder! it's the opposite of a focus relaxation! lol

i am amazed by the amount ive been able to sleep over the past couple days. i thought that it was only possible to sleep so much. i can fall asleep in 2 seconds even when i don't feel tired.

if i sit on my butt all day and eat icecream and smoke weed would that help my brain?

no! only fat thighs! lol

besides swimming i don't really have enjoyable tasks.

is talking to you a given task?

maybe ill try doing my paint by numbers again, i usually last 10 minutes.

i did work for an hour today, that was fun.

okay, i didn't think so, but wanted to make sure.

they can't get much more jiggly then this!

my cats seem really relaxed. riding a bike is i think focus relaxation, but my heart feels too weak to ride my bike, like i don't have enough energy.

neither did hawkings! but he was a pretty fast gear changer! lol