4.....


Are you the keeper of the light?...Are you the candle in
the dark?...You sit and wonder with all that is in you...And ask yourself…am I even real?...You meditate and wait to face the wind...blinded by the darkness of a heavy heart...You stand alone here…waiting for the breath of life to fill your lungs once again...

To hear your own shuddering as I begin again…one with one...You wonder...am I to always be this way?...Am I now always to sit and wonder…what if?...Or will it all come to pass as it was written long ago before I came here?...Where is here?...Am I in the right time and space for what I seek?...or am I too late for the promise of a new day?...Am I truly damned?...Or is this just a stigma placed on me by humanity?...

I feel alive in darkness...I use to cower from the light...I
did not seek redemption...I ask not for forgiveness...As I walk through this time...this place...I want to awaken...I want to look into the faces of man...as they await the fate of this world...I often wonder if they will make it?...I wonder if they see the signs that give them warning?...I always wanted to understand what runs through a man‘s mind at the end....

As I offer an outstretched hand...I wish that time would just stand still...I have so much to do...so many cups yet to fill...I want so much for humanity...I bleed from my eyes as I look upon their pain...I can feel it deep within my very soul...Can there be hope?...Are we to just watch humanity fade into the voids of their own demise?...

As they sink deeper within themselves...and forget the honor
of living...I sometimes wonder...what caused this self destructive mode they are in...Could it be that they sense my father does not feel anything…anymore?...I can remember times of the past...Times more simple...or so they seemed to be...Have they all given up?...Why does it appear they have forgot what The Watchers taught them?...Or is it that we have forgot how to teach them?...Where and when will it all end?...