How many of us feel like this?!?! It feels like I've been waiting an eternity. I continue to stand my ground, holding firmly to my Will. I know exactly what that means. There are cosmic laws that bind the Conspirators from explicitly violating the will of others.Many do so anyway, believing that they are using legitimate loopholes (always a stretch). The Conspirators in my life really do seem to be disappearing and receding. But they caused me so much suffering that I'm often not sure I will ever be OKagain. And I constantly fight urges to try to do revenge things, or turn them in. Tonight I hatched two revenge plans... Then felt afraid to try anything. These urges alternate with urges to run away and live in a new place, away from the madness here -- but every day I see the newsand realize there is no safe place any more. Trying to ride it out to the end, like she says, now. It really does feel like things are building up to the crescendo or climax - any time now. Every day I see and feel more radical changes. I am also scared and put a BOB in my car...