I cannot believe how lonely I am

Isn't that escapism?


You're not alone, OP. You have lots in common with many people here at GLP.

Agoraphobia, at least in my case, gets better as we age. Don't worry about what the morons around you think of you. Sharing your thoughts with drones is casting your pearls before swine. It's pointless.

spirit of a woman who "knows what she wants" right there.


cheers to you dear.

I could fix you right up. You don't need meds, I've got all the medicine you need, supplied by HOT BEEF INJECTION.

You sound like a great mom :) ..just remember, if you leave your children occasionally, they will learn that you will come back, everything will be ok, they'll survive. Sounds like your mom was gone a lot.. You are not her.

I can totally relate to feeling like an outsider, I too seem to have a tough time making friends for the exact same reasons you noted. I get it. But think, is your desire to have friends stronger than your beliefs/morals/understanding?

..I didn't think so ;) ..so goes it.

Keep your head up. Choose friends wisely, most don't. Its tough to do the right things in life, huh?

now now mexico - calm down.

So called modern society is fractionated. Every individual disenfranchised....this is what our culture is. Many people feel as you do. Get some real friends you can get high with.... I bet you anything what you are looking for will be found within everything you've previously judged and condemned as bad.

I have no idea how old your children are but I'm assuming they are still at home?

I agree with the advice of finding a part-time job. If you think you feel lonely now.. wait until your house is an empty nest. You have a inkling of what's before you.. make a concerted effort to find things that interest you and pursue them.

Do something now as it won't get any easier.





Good for you!! It's easy to lose ourselves being mothers as that is what God intended for us to do! I'm so happy you found something that interested you enough to work for!!



This is the most profound Truth of all. As mothers we are on the front lines when it comes to protecting our families. This applies 1000 fold when it comes to spiritual issues.

We owe it to our children to know the Lord so we can pray for them as we should. By our example it is something that will become an integral part of their lives.

One day we may not be around to guide them. How comforting to know we have left them in the Arms of the One who cherishes them even more than ever could.

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First of all, you are a great Mom. How you poured into your children over their lives will mean so much to them... If not now, most certainly later.

You are probably in a different season of your life where is is important to connect with others. If you found a larger non denominational Christian church, you will find others you can easily connect with. The larger churches will have a lot of women involved in bible studies and support groups. I have a feeling you will make friends very easily.

I remember feeling exactly like you did many years ago as a mother with two young children. I got out and worked part-time at the mall during the evenings...I stayed home with the kiddos all day and then husband had them at night so one of us was always with them. I only worked a few nights a week...sometimes during the weekend. It gets you talking with adults again. I had forgotten how to. Raising children is the most important job you'll ever do. It's important to focus on them. But you also have to get out a few days a week. ((hugs)) to you. Also, find a good church...we loved our sunday school class.

there is some great advice above^^

And yes, be really choosy and careful who you allow to be your friend.

I'm just here to help. My superior genetic juice will cure what ails you.

I think you are an indecent coward.

been there ...give a little bit of your time to any food pantry, food service for the homeless. animal rescue, you are going to see that you are not alone and maybe your words or a smile will bring comfort to somebody. or refuge to a sad little pet.i assure you is the best filling

No friends here either but I get immersed in studying for computer certifications and fine tuning my survival gear. When it all goes south it will be just you, your gear and your skills. You can be comfortable or miserable. It's up to you. And we're running out of time.....

I think that's good, but don't busy yourself with intellectual pursuits at the expense of connecting with other humans.

People need to connect.

^^^^^running out of time, you have spoken well

Hey OP, something to throw in the mix here. I would consider the very real possibility that maybe you only started to feel this degree of loneliness when the idea was put in your head by movie, tv, magazines, or just selfish people pushing their me first agenda.

Consider this possibility - really. No one wants to believe they are that impressionable, moldable but we are. When you shut it all off - the psychoanalytical find yourself, your purpose, naval gazing books, turn off talk shows with all the women, the magazines, fiction books, all of it, turn it off for awhile - you will find you are really happy, everything is good, there is joy and it is very complete and satisfying, just you, your husband and your children's lives.

It really is going to go very fast, before you know it they will be grown up. Don't let all the media chatter in your ear that there is something more out there. They lie. They have an agenda. Separating you from your children so they can get their hands on their young minds and bodies.

Mothers and fathers always protect, keep the nest, are consumed with the children, feeding, teaching - how it is suppose to be. If something somehow has got you thinking 180 contrary to the historical norm, you must ask why and what is chattering in your ear to make you want to look elsewhere.

Wow.

...just fucking Wow.

This to shall pass......... A very old saying

I spend a lot of time over at the library. Even fixed a few laptops over there at no charge. Every time I work on a pc I learn something new. Well almost every time. That's about all the people interaction I need. Now if I could just get paid to do that....

Glad to hear you off the suicidal/mind control poison pills.

I've gone through a lot of these same experiences as you.

This is all related to your body and minds nutritional deficiencies. For years you put in your body poisons and toxins so now its time to put minerals and vitamins, all natural things.


This WILL GET YOU OUT OF YOUR DEPRESSION, I promise!

1. Iodine : Start with 25mg build up to 100mg/day. You will have initial detox reactions probably due to the bromide and fluoride being taken out by the Iodine. Fluoride, Bromide, Chlorine .. all the halogens are POISONOUS to your body. They block your thyroid gland and other glands and harm your bodies tissue and organs. The Iodine will detox your body and also take out heavy metals such as aluminum and mercury that is contained in Vaccines that you have received all your life and in your water/food supply. Your brain cannot function properly and will always be low on serotonin and dopamine if you have these toxins in your body.

2. Magnesium : 500mg/day Take Magnesium Chloride version after a mean.

3. Selenium: Helps body asborb Iodine and is involved in anti oxidant production in the body. Very good to preven flu and other things they are throwing at us. Buils up your immune system. Take 200-400 micrograms. In Times of sicknesss go up to 600 micrograms-1000micrograms/day

4. Niacin: The kind that gives you a flush. The other kinds are a waste of money. The flush is not as bad as it sounds. Start with a low dose of 50mg or less than build up to 100mg within a week or two and than bring up to 200-300mg/day. Niacin helped saved my life, honestly! And it will help increase serotonin NATURALLY.

4. Vitamin D3: It is literally the sunshine vitamin. Technically it is a hormone in your body. You need it for literally so many different functions. Also to help absorb calcium properly for your bones. Boosts your immune system too. Take at least 10,000 units/day. First 2 or 3 weeks take 20,000 Units /day of Vitamin D3. Than go back down to 10,000 units/day.

5. Take a B-complex 100 : Which contains all the b vitamins in 100mg dosage. Make sure the Vitamin b-12 is the form Methylcobalamin and not Cyanocobalamin, which has small amounts of cyanide! Cheap Vitamin supplements have that so watch out.

6. L-Tyrosine- important amino acid that helps form Thyroid hormone. Dont listen to the propaganda that taking too much Iodine or Tyrosine is dangerous. There are so many doctors that give their patients more than 50mg of Iodine daily! Enough of what the criminal big pharma and their bullshit doctors say! Also helps make melanin. Take 1000mg/day

7. Vitamin C: Helps with Iodine Detox and flush out all the bromide and other heavy metals. Helps kidneys and liver detox faster and better. Also, very good to boost immune system and overal health and energy levels. Also an anti oxidant. Take 2000mg/day split in two doses. If sick take up to 5000mg/day split in doses every 4 hours since Vitamin C is water soluble and the body excretes it every 4 hours.

8. Inositol and Choline Combo: Take these two for mental health and energy. These are needed by the nerve cells. Inositol is used by many good doctors to treat bipolar and depression and other mental issues naturally. Google these and everything else I mentioned and take care of your health!

Good luck!

HollDoll, do you have difficulties trusting people? I mean, aside from your family of course.

Find unity with all creation. Find the Kingdom within yourself. Fill with love. Dont ever depend emotionally on others, ever.

OP do you belong to a church or is there a club (quilting, cooking, sewing, gardening, painting, etc.) of some sort that interest you? This is how to connect with others. Or even start a once a month pot luck for the moms and kids in your neighborhood where everyone takes turns at having it at the different homes.

People need a creative outlet in their lives which nutures them. If you enjoy music join a choir. If you enjoy sewing join a quilting bee. If you enjoy cooking take some cooking classes. If you enjoy gardening join those types of groups on-line or start one in your area.

Or you can become a volunteer for somewhere like the church, hospital, hospice or school. This will also get you out and about. There are numerous opportunities to connect. Be brave and don't give up.

Dearest OP,

Please know that your self sacrifice for your children will not be taken for granted, especiallyas your children hear stories from their peers about their parents getting divorced, or about them never being there or involved enough in their lives.

However, you owe it to yourself to have a more well rounded life, because at the end of the day you will be even a better parent if you are more happy with yourself and the life that you lead. This doesn't mean that you put them in day care to go do something else, I'm just saying that a night out with your husband here and there would be good.

If you are having trouble finding new, quality friends, I have anidea for you... My wife always had trouble making friends, she is a bit akward socially and suffers from OCD, both of which played a large roll in her not having any friends to speak of except her childhood frioend that she grew up with. That all changed when we got involved with a local non-denominational church.

As it turned out, we were lookingfor a new church when we moved to a new area and we stumbled upon this church after checking out at least 4 or 5 other ones. The women of this church who we met through a small group we joined became the friends that she always needed, and this really has helped her be even a better mother thanshe already was and is.

I wish you the best of luck OP. Women of your calibur are rare these days, and your children, and their children, and their children will benefit from your sacrifice!

I haven't had a chance to read through it all yet but it's apparent that a lot of people are really great at assuming. A lot of the reasons for me being at home, is because of my health. I had my uterus removed last year and they are going to take out my ovaries in a few weeks. I'll be going through menopause at the age of 27. I also have severe tachycardia where they have had to shock me. For the most part though, I am healthier than I have been, and don't get me wrong. Life could always be worse, and I see that. I realize that having kids and a husband is more than a lot of people have. It is strange, though, I used to be a more social person. Today, I was really incredibly busy though. It helped a lot just to be busy.

OP I'm sure you don't need telling this but it is truly all in your head. Some of us are stuck at home and don't even have a husband or partner. I'm in my 60s and the main person I get to talk to is the dog!! But I'm not in the least lonely.
It sounds like you have depression. If therapy isn't an option, maybe you need the husband to watch the kids while you get out to a group/hobby/whatever.
You can also try re-setting your mind by writing down, say 5 good things about your life and repeating them at night before you go to sleep. It works.

You have admirable intentions towards your children, however, your children are not you - neither are the times the same.

It doesn't sound like you are in any way, shape or form neglective of your kids - however, if you neglect yourself your children will see their mom neglecting herself. No kid wants to see this.

A question:

How is your husband your one and only true soulmate yet you cannot talk to him about this? Seems to kind of defeat the purpose of a soulmate.

Go out have fun. Remember, if you're ALWAYS there for your kids your kids will not learn how to handle themselves when alone. I of course, don't know their age but look up some child psychology books.(and maybe find a friend in the library)