Suicide is not the answer.

I struggle with suicidal thoughts for last few years. I feel I cant experience joy, pleasure and happiness for some reason. Maybe I am mentally fucked up...but what is reason to live if you are devoid of any positive feelings? Only feelings I am left with are anguis, anger, rage, agony, anxiety and such...

Dont get me wrong. My mother, sister and brother are loving and supportive....they are my last reason why I continue to fight....

That must be difficult for you to deal with day after day. How do you relax?

My story is long. I got involved in the occult...but I can open about it only for people who have understanding.

This is so true. However I don't want to sound like a dick but as a person who went through it and didn't off themselves I have no sympathy for the ones that do off themselves for certain reasons. I can understand if your family is shit, your life is shit, no friends, poor, no shelter to call home, etc then maybe it would be justified. But these days kids off themselves because of really stupid shit that all kids before them have had to go through but these ones think theres no way out, and there is a reason for it too, as I will explain later. These kids nowadays off themselves cause of relationships, cyber-bullying(the concept is just so outlandish and fucking crazy i cant understand it), real bullying, etc all of which can be easily stopped and fixed with a little help from the people they love.

I even had the knife held to my wrist but then I had a flash of memories and thoughts rush through my head. Thoughts of how everyone else would suffer while I would be free. I thought that was very selfish and cowardly to put all my problems on them. I started thinking about the stuff I would never get to experience. Places I'd never get to see. People i'd never meet. I started crying and threw the knife across the room so hard it stuck in the wall. I never looked back. All of that was caused by REAL bullying not this fake cyber-bullying crap. If someone is harassing you on the internet, turn it the fuck off. Problem solved. Real bullying you can't just turn off. It hurts ALOT more than cyber-bullying could ever do. This is why I have very little sympathy for these kids that off themselves for this reason. If they did it because of cyber bullying then maybe they should have had a taste of real bullying, then they would realize that its all smoke and mirrors. They are just words. Sure my life may still be shit but I'm still kickin it. I have never thought about doing it ever again. If only every child could think this way.

I guess it depends on the reason for the depression, however nowadays it could be almost anything. Instead of getting to the root of the problem doctors end up drugging them up and causing them to be even more suicidal. Drugs are not the cure for a depression. I don't know the circumstances surrounding the OP's daughters death and i'm not asking the OP to explain but you have to ask yourself, did she give any signs?, did you notice anything off about her before she ended it? was she alone a lot? Did her grades start slipping? There had to have been some sign where she was ending up.

I will extend a hand of sympathy to you though. I am very sorry for your loss. I can only hope that some day we can stop all of these innocent children from doing this to themselves. Sadly though this probably will never happen as there are assholes everywhere whose only purpose is to put others down and make them feel like shit.

Maybe it was their time to go. Sorry for your loss but clearly you or anything else weren't a reason for her to keep on living.

My dear friend, please read this testimony if you wish ("My brother came into my house...")

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My story is long. I got involved in the occult...but I can open about it only for people who have understanding.

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