You are in way over your pay scale.

Firstly we were commanded to spread the gospels, the good news.

The only two things that Christ told us to do are love God above all others and to love our neighbor (anyone else) as we love ourselves.

No where in His messages to us is to do anything else but whAt comes out, naturally. He gave us varying gifts to be used and they are different for each of us.

No where does it say we have to suffer, that is not a loving state. In the Phillippines flagellatiuon is still practiced , is this what you espouse?

There is nothing we can do to save ourselves, He did that already, to conclude all to Him in this.