Even Solomon fell to the desires of the women around him into sin. Sounds like your girlfriend doesn't care very much about you to me. I am an alcoholic so I guess it takes one to know one. The day after a relapse you go right to the whiskey?! And you don't feel badly? Maybe not now, but you cannot hide behind that bottle for long...God puts those feelings of shame there for a reason...to save your life! My suggestion is you listen to them...