Sorry to hear about the bad day and all the worries Sim. You really can use a break from that.

But you know, insight and technology has really advanced so much in the last decades, there are so many great and brilliant surgeons today, that they will fix Ryan. You need to trust in that. And as scary as the situation and those images are. They are more then able to save people's lives.

And I hear you on Ryan's attitude. But sometimes you need to make light of situations and find positivism in negativity. It is a survival mechanism as well. You yourself knows how that works from personal experience. Worrying about this is very logical, but let's also be glad that they got this before he really would have had a heart attack. It is a wake up call. Now you can work on progress and healing. Through all the things you do to change the living pattern and that surgery.

And you need to find some rest yourself too. You got your own things going on. If you need help or a little break every now and then, ask your family. I am sure they will chip in too. You can not be worrying and running 36/7. You know? :

Off to work. Stay safe girl and try to find some sleep, it's been a long exhausting day. My thoughts are with you all.