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Guitarguy55
(OP) User ID: 57064084 United States 06/29/2014 02:28 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: I've made a decision that is going to change my life and I hope the lives of others! I'll need all the strength I can muster. Sure. Hole up in your room for a while -- that is very reasonable and okay. Quoting: goodmockingbird Keep treating the symptoms just like you would treat the symptoms of an extremely bad case of flu Do not underestimate the extremity of the illness you have put your body through during your addiction Within a few days or even within a few hours you will get to experience some true deep restorative sleep -- maybe the first real sleep you have had in years It will come... Simply because it must And because it finally can You are already deeply into your recovery and the body is just cleaning itself out Stay hydrated, cool room, dim lighting This too shall pass You really seem to understand and and I deeply appreciate it!!! Even though something occurred today that I could easily have backslided but I closed myself in my room instead. Though we are separated my wife brought my son over to visit for a couple of hours and he fully knows why I am putting myself through this but when sh came to pick him up and after I god hugs and kisses from my kids, she just reached over and gave me one of those weak slimy handshakes, ya know the kind ya get from someone ya meet who you would rather not!!! and you want to go wash your hands that's what I got. My daughter gave her a look that would kill it just hurt my feelings a bit and even though I am trying my best, that's all she could must I am trying not to think to much into it but in my fragile state of mind on thee family side i need a little more support than rejection. Guitarguy55 The Breaker of many a G-String! |
goodmockingbird
User ID: 55305326 United States 06/29/2014 02:49 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: I've made a decision that is going to change my life and I hope the lives of others! I'll need all the strength I can muster. You really seem to understand and and I deeply appreciate it!!! Even though something occurred today that I could easily have backslided but I closed myself in my room instead. Though we are separated my wife brought my son over to visit for a couple of hours and he fully knows why I am putting myself through this but when sh came to pick him up and after I god hugs and kisses from my kids, she just reached over and gave me one of those weak slimy handshakes, ya know the kind ya get from someone ya meet who you would rather not!!! and you want to go wash your hands that's what I got. My daughter gave her a look that would kill it just hurt my feelings a bit and even though I am trying my best, that's all she could must I am trying not to think to much into it but in my fragile state of mind on thee family side i need a little more support than rejection. Quoting: Guitarguy55 GG, don't ever expect people who have not been there to understand at all. Besides, you probably look like you are pretty danged sick, what with the runny nose, watery eyes, and dehydration. People naturally -- instinctively -- pull back from anyone exhitting flu symptoms. Human nature. AND in your state of mind, you are bound to be picking up on the least trace of vibes that make you feel crummy about yourself. In fact, I bet you are feeling a lot of self-directed anger now. Remember: Guilt is a productive, healthy emotion. You, or someone, has done something wrong, regrets it, and feels bad over it. Shame, however, is a condition of being. It is not productive or healthy. It is reasonable to feel quite a bit of guilt over stupid addict behaviour you have done. So do I. But I know I did it. And it has receded into my past so far -- and has been outweighed and diluted so much -- that I can put it into perspective as part (and only part!) of an overall good life. Just put all that crap on a shelf, and bookmark it for later review!!! Emphasis on LATER review. Right now you are sick. Just plain sick. Why you are sick doesn't matter all that much any more. Could be the flu. Could be withdrawals. Just it straight in your mind that you are recovering!!! and soon will not be sick any longer. Bear in mind that your mind is a sort of magnifying lense at the moment, focusing on bad, crummy, self-hating things. Admit to yourself that your perspective is screwed up and unrealistic. Admit to yourself that ONE DAY you will be putting this ALL into PERSPECTIVE as an interlude in life. Okay, you feel like crap. That's part of the deal. And that is why -- although we may be members of the world's most exclusive club, with the world's highest dues -- nobody ever, ever wants to join our club. You're just paying your dues. And you do get to come out on the other side. And play with the cool kids. I Support Our First Responders |
Guitarguy55
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Lil Sis
User ID: 43723261 United States 06/29/2014 09:51 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: I've made a decision that is going to change my life and I hope the lives of others! I'll need all the strength I can muster. Well Guitar Guy, I was in a project today and did not drop in. I hope you are doing better today, and that you sleep well tonight. Read spiritual stuff, listen to calming music, hot baths, wholesome foods, and keep your electrolytes in balance.... you know the drill. B Vitamins are essential for rebuilding and maintaining your nervous system, if nobody has mentioned that. Niacin is good, but it causes a flush, like prickly sunburn. You can take it in small pieces of a tablet over a period rather that in one piece. We're still praying for you.... ************************************************************************ Corruptisima re publica plurimae leges. ~ Terence |
Ohio chic
User ID: 59664669 United States 07/03/2014 03:23 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: I've made a decision that is going to change my life and I hope the lives of others! I'll need all the strength I can muster. Hope all is well. NO! My name is NOT spelled wrong. Grab a dictionary. Peace, Love & Prayers God bless America And YES. I am a nurse! SIDE NOTE- I find articles everywhere and post what I think GLP would like to know. I do not necessarily believe or endorse some articles I find. So do not bash the messenger |
Lil Sis
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Ohio chic
User ID: 59664669 United States 07/03/2014 06:48 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: I've made a decision that is going to change my life and I hope the lives of others! I'll need all the strength I can muster. Hummm...not good?? NO! My name is NOT spelled wrong. Grab a dictionary. Peace, Love & Prayers God bless America And YES. I am a nurse! SIDE NOTE- I find articles everywhere and post what I think GLP would like to know. I do not necessarily believe or endorse some articles I find. So do not bash the messenger |
Abi ~
User ID: 54732924 United States 07/03/2014 11:37 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: I've made a decision that is going to change my life and I hope the lives of others! I'll need all the strength I can muster. Wherever you are, OP, hang in there..we are still here for you!!! You accept the love you think you deserve~~~ Love cannot live where there is no trust~~~ Truth has no temperature~~~ Love like it's never gonna hurt~~~ Have no regrets~~~ |
goodmockingbird
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 38052225 United States 07/04/2014 12:47 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: I've made a decision that is going to change my life and I hope the lives of others! I'll need all the strength I can muster. There will be days when you have managed pain away but your mood will be indicating that you are indeed suffering. Be aware and try to avoid overdoing it so you can stay balanced. |