I very rarely get high but I was watching the BP oil spill live feed on TV while high and I cannot express in words the HORROR that I felt, such an incredible profound horror. All that oil gushing and gushing and they had no way to turn it off, how can we be such fuckwits? It was a really awful profound feeling

That memory is probably always going to be there as a potent memory for me. I think the being high really brought me in tune with my feeling and unfortunately it was a pretty negtive feeling. Sounds like the same thing happened with you and ebola.

The good news is it's just a memory, an emotional memory but not like I go around feeling that horror all the time. It faded substantially within a few days.

You will probably start feeling better in a little while.