I think I may have cheated death, and its coming back to me.

Hey I've just recently turned 21 on the 20th this month and I am in the last position i would have seen myself with these energies I had big dreams of fame through music these dreams came perceptibly real when I was just 15/16 and I was living in a three story care block where I had my second encounter with psychics namely Solomon a guy who could see right in my mind and I think - jynxed me As my mental health is abrupt but no doctor or psychologist can see fit why. I'm on a real high dosage of meds but I have such a low understanding of myself in this area. Basicly the reason I think I cheated death is a couple of memory's one someone told me that another guy there hung off the ledge of the top window and climed back to his bedroom it looked easy but dangerous as there was a triangular shaped conservetary leading to a definately disentorianted landing a bang to the head on another roof and straight to my demise of death, my unpredictibale impulsive behaviour makes this so believable due to the fact I swallowed over 120 high dose psychotic medication and sleeping pills Prozac all sorts I couldn't have my stomache pumped cause it was too late. After the fall I can repeatedly see the after effects my mother nearly dying with years and much more, please someone help me :(