i understand that you have never had a connection to G-d. you often explore a connection with the intention to subvert it. you plead that G-d never answers you while at the same time expressing your disbelief. this facet has never escaped my attention. it very much like how you tend to cater your message to your current audience. you always make sure that your position is crafted towards deniably, which it turn sours your credibility. you have often targeted G-d with your anger, and have always tried to discredit belief in
G-d. your anger is noted. you can be whatever you choose, that's your free will. lol