wife is making plans with her facebook lover as i sit here next to her.

i had thought of moving to another country, but i think i will stick it out here until all of the animals have lived their lives. they give me love and it's the least i can do to repay it. all of them are either ferals i have had fixed and homed or strays that were left to die. if i cant have compassion for the innocent then why should i seek it from a human?

You have risen in my estimates OP ...

thanks.

i got her to fess up about skyping with the dude and being an exebitionist. told her of the taped conversations and the death threat she made to him about killing me. she is now afraid to come back and has decided to stay with him in missouri. she wanted honesty, i asked her if she was so honest and i was supposedly her soul mate for 20 years (which i tend not to believe in) how and why was this guy her soul mate now. she was at a loss for words and finally gave up the info. i already knew it, but wanted to hear it from her. so i think that might have finished it for good. now comes the rebuilding. 2 weeks seems to be the cutoff time for feeling down about these kinds of situations, things feel alot better now except for having someone to talk to to fill the lonely times.