IMHO
You want reconciliation.
God and His Son do not. This has been going on for 10+ years.
Your wife and kids are in denial of God and His Son.
You HAVE tried to lead them. They are refusing to follow.
YOU can't save them. That's up to God and Jesus / Yeshua at this point.
The sooner YOU accept God's WILL in this situation - the sooner you can move on.
Careful LS we cannot ever assume what God wants and He always wants reconciliation. Lets pray what God's will is not matter how long it has taken.
Abigail and David are a great reminder God takes care of relationships , we do not.
It is a sin for any of us to remarry we cause greater sin in this so.
Dear Heavenly Father , we ask that CC stop thinking of his wants and go forward with what You want, we ask for salvation in all this , Your peace and comfort in Jesus name amen
LS- yes, I want reconciliation. That is what i "assume" that the lord wants for all of this. Like I said, yesterday was a rollercoaster for me. I was up and down all day and most of the night.
I have turned it all over to him. I talked with my attorney today. She was served yesterday. So the ball is now "officially" in play with moving forward. She does not have an attorney, that I am aware of yet. My lawyer said that there is nothing showing in the courts yet for that.
She has been going crazy with the replies of, "We need to do mediation/divorce" AND "Have you listed the house for sale yet?" There is nothing in her replies when I ask about the kids or their health issues.
As I stated many times. I do not want to divorce. I know that I have done a lot in the last 10 years of the marriage to try to make this work. Yes, I have failed at some of those things and I am not guilt free on things. I know that. For the record I have never cheated on her physically with another person. I have not looked at porn. Ive had thoughts about other women, but never went forth with them or even spoken to them. I did tell her of those. I have asked for forgiveness from the Lord over those things and I have apologized to her in the past for those things too. She never really accepted It. She even brought up that recently before leaving.
Is this what the Lord wants? Could be. Just as you say. I have tried to convert her. We have gone to Christian counselors, I tried to take her to Church with me. She did not want to do either. So, is it what the lord wants? That is what got me emotional yesterday. I prayed and prayed most of the day and evening. I did not watch videos, TV or anything other than getting on here to post the rollercoaster post.
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GFG - That is what I am talking about when I say that I dont know. I know that God wants reconciliation and abhors divorce except in certain conditions. That is why I was the mess. I was/am not sure if it is what he wants in this case. I am turning it all over to him. I am allowing it to play out. I am still praying every hour. I went to work today to talk about my time off. I was praying with my manager. He is going through a divorce too.
It seems that this is the nature of the beast in my line of work. :/
Let me say this. I am sorry for the emotional crap. I was hurting. I was praying and it did not seem to be helping and I needed an outlet I guess. Sorry again to everyone for that mess. I am a person that overthinks everything. The whole what if/then stuff. I guess I get that from my days of coding. I have to make sure there is an answer for everything. I know that answer is God and that he will do as he see's fit.
On a bad note. Angela passed away last night. So I guess, my problems are minuscule compared to my friends loss. :(
Love you all. Prayers said for everyone in this thread, even if you dont need them. I still ask if you guys say prayers that you still include my wife, my children, Angelas kids and her husband.
