Odd day. She came over. I wont get into details, but she was asked to leave by me within a minute or two of her entering the house. She did leave. Again, mentioning/mumbling that I needed to learn how to love myself better.

I cleaned up the carpets again for the 4th time in the kids rooms. They are looking 1k times better. Not sure if I should order some paint and try to paint the rooms or just leave them as they sit. ANother week of full trash cans too. This is now 4 weeks of trash that I have removed from this house. She was a hoarder. Hard to come to grips with how bad it was. I tried to keep it under control and could not seem to keep up with it. Just the garage and office left. Garage wont take much.

Other than that I have been dealing with being sick. I forced myself to eat a little bit of fish and some bone broth. I have lost 35 pounds so far and will probably be shaving my head in the morning. I hate losing my red hair. I have lost clumps this time. The physical sick sucks. Emotionally I am better today, except for her visit.

I prayed off and on today for help with the emotional stuff. my kids, my wife, prayed for the AC. Also prayed for those of you praying for me too.

hope you guys have a blessed night/day depending on when you are reading this.

Ohh and yes, avatar change again. I decided to upload a pic of my cat. The one she took, but left me with the kids cats. I miss that big bugger. His name is Darth maul, yes I am a star wars geek.