I lost my best friend at 36... he drank Vodka very often and those hard ciders every day,
He was a great guy but the drink got him...
He was Diabetic and could not afford his meds. He wore thick glasses and one of the last things he said to me was he only needed his glasses when he drank Vodka...
He also told me a month before he died that he fell asleep on the couch and woke up 3 days later and thought he had had a diabetic coma and it scared him... well a month later he was fond on his couch, fell asleep and never woke up... Blood sugar killed the guy! After reading your story made me think of my best friend Steve.

Please find a free clinic or something but see a doc and get some help with the drink my friend.... My buddy Steve also shared with me just before he died that he had gone back to Church and Jesus was "real" to him so I at least know I will see my friend again...