I'm getting "confused sheep trying to swallow the biggest lie ever told to him and it's not sitting well" kind of vibe.

I'm also getting "haven't slept in over 48 hours, drinking coffee and popping pills to keep me sane through the media assault" kind of vibe, all overlain with "I JUST LOST MY BROTHER IN THE MOST HORRENDOUSLY AWFUL AND INEXPLICABLE WAY -- DO YOU PEOPLE HAVE NO SENSE OF DECORUM OR BASIC HUMAN DECENCY -- I'M IN FUCKING MOURNING -- LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE!!!!" kind of vibe.

That's what I see and hear, OP.