IT IS HAPPENING NOW THE ANGELS HAVE COME FORTH SEALING THE SERVANTS

but anyhow I will sit in this dumb training for 3 weeks and if anything new comes along make a note of it

while I try and figure out what to do about a lot of things

Oh anyhow

I think HE took a Tooth

yeah I think that was last night

HE took a Tooth

I'm STRANGE but NOT a Stranger

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You have NOT seen nothing yet!

the supposed 2nd day of training for the job continues

but I sit here while they try and get people to log into the meeting correctly

ask them why they are logging in on mobile devices when we are supposed to working at home on computers

and doing system checks that they were supposed to do

and many stating they are not connected to the ethernet which was a clear job requirement stated repeatedly

oh my


I think this is what is causing so much trouble with employers expanding to having home workers



anyway, I am cleared, and I got all my Rehired paperwork this morning

well I was mad at this company because they just suddenly with no warning let us all go before Christmas two years ago and gave all our jobs to India

but they sent me messages and I finally responded after deleted them numerous times and they hired me fast

it reminded me just now that back in 1985 I had an incident at Bob's Big Boy with James Taylor "JT" who I was having an affair with and another manager knew and was doing all kinds of shit to me and it came to a big fight and he had to fire me, I went off

and, of course, she didn't know that I was 15 at the time, but then when he kept seeing me, my Mom called and told him, but that did not stop him

then, he transferred to another store and kept on and on until I came and started working with him again, and that did not go good either

it was a big thing that went down

well, he was a player and pretty soon I was just moving on, and getting tired of his shit as well, and making some girlfriends as well who didn't like him

it was a whole big funny thing that happened

oh back then they didn't check anything

I did as my Mom said

I told them I was 18 and from West Virginia and graduated from I think from Elkorne High School or something

they never questioned it

I had a Social Security card

I worked night shift, closing till like 3 or so in the morning

James got me to drinking the beers after work

he said that he was worried about me because I was not showing signs of grief over my brothers death and he was afraid I could end up like this girl he knew he kept everything inside and went crazy so we started having beers at first with others after work

oh this place is so funny

the rich monogram everything


our Belgian flax linen is prewashed for incredible softness it will only cost you 349 dollars for a set of sheets

well I have been learning a lot about European furniture and items

I have to say the collections and quality are exquisite

the founder had an eye for good taste when he founded his empire and started bringing these items to America and other countries

I felt that I really expanded myself this week in learning about so many beautiful things

well the Med Aide teacher did it again

I told her I was working Monday through Friday 1 to 930 pm

she scheduled a Review for all missed questions on the tests yesterday at 5pm

then today she scheduled another random test to be completed for 1 hour between 12 and 5 pm

what a fucking bitch!

but of course, I don't know the right answers because I missed the review as well


on top of that the system I am using for work, the monitor went out so I had to call out of training so that job may be lost

have to see what can be done

no money right now

well, you know, he does not seem to understand, that they switched the white man for the black man

and that he needs to continue taking quickly what is his back

he is being too slow about it

I don't know if he is worried about us, or unsure about what he wants, I don't know

but he does not need to think like that

he should just take everything that is his

and let the rest work itself out

I mean don't worry about things that are not, right now

things are fine the way they have been, and are

it will be alright

COWARDS ARE UNACCEPTABLE

JUST DO IT!

you know, there just was there, this very deep love and friendship between us

it was nothing that had to be obtained or tried for, it just existed

it just is

it just remains forever

so he should not worry about how things will be or what will be

we can't think about that

we do what is in front of us to do

what needs to be done NOW

yeah, people fuck up, they make mistakes, but COWARDNESS IS UNACCEPTABLE, SO JUST DO IT, JUST TAKE EVERYTHING THAT IS YOURS, QUICKLY! AND PUT AN END TO THIS

You have to get things back on the right track

But America itself is NOT going to be okay until they stop being a divided Kingdom, you can NOT have a Government fighting with itself everyday, and people, and no one even agrees on what the Constitution says or what any Law says or means

Furthermore, America has NO identity, and while we honor Free Religion we are a Christian Country and we should acknowledge that

they keep saying above that they are going to Kidnap someone

well that did happen on the World that was destroyed back in 2008

Father was pissed

I try to think that everything happens for a reason

and try and not get upset about too much

we needed the money but I had to call out of training not knowing how far it will set me behind

and worried about missing the review for this surprise new test and all

but I try not to worry

I know that Father always has His way and what HE wants will be for me and whatever

I thought to myself, well, maybe Father was worried that I was getting too stressed out. I have been now so tired. I get off work, and just go straight to bed, so tired. Barely able to kiss Bear goodnight and ask Father to tuck us in.

I guess I finally have to agree with Steve, I did have a Nervous Breakdown, but he just does not understand, what I felt inside my Soul, when I heard that news about him and Rachel from Martha. I don't know how to explain it, I couldn't have ever expected it myself, I just literally wanted to die, to cease to exist, I just dropped and passed out for months, and then it went on for years.

The profound effect that it had on my literal soul could had in no way been expected

no matter what positive things I tried to do or say, it didn't help, the soul was unwilling

it took years and years

I just remember vaugue one day waking up and crying and crying and Steve was there again holding me telling me how much he loved me and I fell asleep again

and that went on for a long time

then I started to finally get up some

I remember at one point they said something to him like "there you go"

and he said "the packaging isn't right'

and I agreed

there I was in the worst state I had been in ever in my life

he had been trying to repair the shattered glass while I was still under attack by them and going through hell

and I was a fucking mess and my appearance totally destroyed

and then they say 'okay there she is"

no that was totally fucked up and I agreed with him



And Rachel? Well there relationship didn't last. At one point she tried to murder him because he wouldn't marry her.

The whole thing was so bizarre to me, because he used to call her "A Rat on the Farm" and then he is in a video like under a lust spell for the one he was disgusted by and then he is with her moving her into his house, it was so fucking unreal, I guess it just knocked me out

Then after he just referred to her as "The Strumpet"

Re: Christianity Today: "Christians need to pay reparations to black people, Repentance not enough!"
Well I don't know anybody alive who has been Slaves, I haven't owned any slaves, my Parents and Grandparents and Great Grandparents have NOT owned any slaves

so I am not paying for something some 200 year old skeletons did

Re: Fox News promotes the Robert L Johnson "Reparations" plan.
Re: Christianity Today: "Christians need to pay reparations to black people, Repentance not enough!"

Well I don't know anybody alive who has been Slaves, I haven't owned any slaves, my Parents and Grandparents and Great Grandparents have NOT owned any slaves

so I am not paying for something some 200 year old skeletons did

Why bump a failed thread?

well like Steve knows sometimes I feel like I am going to explode in heat and lust over being deprived from being with him

but I am remaining celibate

I just can not bring myself to being interested in anybody

I still love him so much

I just feel like I have a lot to work on, and maybe when everything gets acceptable for him and the time is right it will happen

Oh I am NOT bumping it

I am just writing on my diary

I would have stopped a long time ago

I asked Trinity to delete it a few times

but I see many people follow it for some reason or other

and I have many Angels above which I bless constantly

I can tell you that Steve in all his names has ALWAYS BEEN FREE WITH ME

I HAVE NEVER BINDED HIM OR IN ANYWAY TRIED TO MAKE HIM STAY WITH ME

HE HAS REMAINED OF HIS OWN FREE WILL AND CHOICE AND LOVE

HE COMES AND GOES AS HE WANTS

I am here, working on things, he knows I am faithful and I love him, and it just is as it is

NO I don't put up with bullshit

I am NOT a doormat

but HE has not treated me in a way that would make me not love him

we had some issues

but our relationship between us was not in such a way that I could really stay mad about it

I have some mixed feelings about things, that is true

I would like for some things to change that is true

But, I just don't like to rush things

I like things to evolve as they will, if they do

Re: Women will despise white men even more now

NO I think you are wrong

White Men have been made an endangered species

they have been switched places above in 1985 for the White King with the Black Pimp

and the White Man and the Family and Loyalty and Fidelity and Marriage and Love erroded

It is about now drugs, whores, strip bars, alcohol, Mistresses, the BlacK Man Pimp ways

I was just talking to Alicia because she had immediately sent me the 150 I needed for a monitor

and it came out that she is "together together" her new girlfriend

and I said "oh well you said we were only together NOT together together, why are you not living with her"

she said something

but did not want to continue the conversation said she was going to bed at 6pm

but after I hung up

it just reminded me of Steve and how we are

it seems like always we are Together, but NEVER together together

like we don't want the entire package of each other and everything that comes with it

we just want each other sometimes, every now and then, like together now and then it seems

Re: Do all women put on a fake persona to lure guys in?

I don't

because I don't give a shit if they like me or not

Re: EArth Can Be destroY!

Your right the Word of God says

HE destroyed those who destroyed the Earth

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You see, from what Mother showed me

I am sure like Apollo Lucifer says that they will Destroy Earth that Earth is of no value to them

nothing can change their minds

they think they are going to live gloriously on some red rock with the demons somewhere

they don't understand that they were created by the Creator on Earth and Earth is their Planet

they are born on Earth, the live on Earth, they die on Earth, they are buried on Earth, they are resurrected on Earth

The Word of God tells us that those that Destroy Earth He will Destroy

and when Father destroys them HE destroys them in flesh and Souls in Hell, they cease to exist anywhere

I hope that I am wrong

But I feel that ..........Steve and I........have just been here "together" but never together together"

I don't think he wants the whole package and everything that comes with it

or ever did

I don't think he ever loved me like that

It's already morning?

oh too many beers last night


I was awakened because HE was very angry at some women

HE said HE was "involved"


Yeah, that is a very good way to put it, we are involved.

But anyhow, however it is, HE has been happy with how it is for many years now, and I guess I have been too, I remain loyal and faithful.

so I am finally fucking done with that fucking class and those black bitches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

they started their shit on Thursday again

she said there is a review for the test, and I told her, I am working Monday through Friday 1 to 930, I can't make a review at that time

she said that I did not need to come

then I log on just to see on Friday and I see she has posted another RANDOM test for Friday to be taken during my Work hours which she already knows I am working

So, I email her and my Counselor and the Administrator

and he responds telling me NOT to talk to my Counselor or him and to ONLY speak to my teacher and is a total fucking dick

well, I will talk to my Counselor if I fucking feel like it or whoever I fucking want

So, then she has her DIRECTOR the fucking bitch who called me for 20 minutes the last time send out emails

to MY Counselor and the Administrator who I thought we were NOT to involve

and saying that I have been told to NOT make ASSUMPTIONS

THE TEST WAS ONLY FOR THE STUDENTS WHO ARE DOING POORLY IN THE CLASS AND NEED TO RAISE THEIR SCORES, AND I DID NOT NEED TO TAKE THE TEST

Like I am somehow supposed to know this when a test is posted?????

So, for all the Blacks in the Class they held a Session on Thursday gave ALL the answers to a Test they planned for Friday and then gave them this Special Test and they NOW changed the Grading as well

you NO longer have to have 80% on EVERY test, you just have to have 80% in general for all tests and skills

SO WHEN LOW IQ'S CAN'T MAKE THE GRADE THEY JUST CHANGE ALL THE POLICIES AND GIVE THEM ALL THE ANSWERS AND SPECIAL TESTS TO GIVE THEM THE JOBS

WHAT A JOKE

But.............ME???? I was wrong and making ASSUMPTIONS and a BAD student because I received an email and noted a TEST Posted that said you must take this test today and I had a reasonable thought that I should take it.


I simply responded to the fucking EVIL Black Bitch that it was greatly appreciated for her to give some information about the test and course and that I had taken many classes with Forsyth Tech since 2012 and had many wonderful experiences but after this experience I would take my business elsewhere.

and again.........she had to have the last word.


So that is fine...........I have no need to respond to her, she deserves NO response.

They know what they did and they were wrong, and they are hateful and Evil, and they deserve no response at all from me, nor any of my business again, ever.