IT IS HAPPENING NOW THE ANGELS HAVE COME FORTH SEALING THE SERVANTS

maybe that is what happens

just one day you are living a nice life and all of a sudden there are voices and you are wondering where the hell they are coming from

and then they all start coming down from above and terrorizing the fuck out of your life for 12 years destroying everything they can and trying constantly to kill you

then one day, I guess they just go away


Oh good, oh great. Let me just have a fucking beer and think about this

Oh no, I am not angry I am beyond that


NOW I want JUSTICE



Now I NEED JUSTICE

it is beyond anger all the suffering I have been through and my children and loved ones and the ones that have been murdered by them

but, I mean what does this mean?

that I can actually start to repair all the damage and everything won't be destroyed again?

does this mean that I can actually live in peace on Earth?

oh, can I have a live flesh cock attached to a good man and actually sit by a fire and drink beers and TALK w our MOUTHS?

wow imagine that. How wonderful to be HUMAN.

well just look at this body and what's become of me

I need to get Jen back in shape and lose a lot of weight first

I wear tight clothing, high heel shoes, it doesn't mean that I'm attracted to you

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oh well that was short lived

I got females above screaming at me telling me that I am dead

oh okay whatever, won't be the first time

anyhow, Steve is still here. I was thinking I was going to get slim and go wild and he thinks not, and I thought I was not going to listen to him, so he told Father, and I got it from both of them.

and I say Father Father I am NOT doing anything, I am just laying here, taking a nap

so I guess I am dead up above in Babylon again

well, 3 1/2 days and I will stand back up and be magickally resurrected

we have already been through this

I don't know why we keep repeating it

now I had a dream that Rachel was trying to attack Krystal

geez Rachel with all her lies and murders isn't in the lake of fire yet?

Rachel just needs to just go away from us

she is still obsessed with me and my children

Good morning Jen! Been lurking thru the blocks.
Today is all about silver and the EO kicking in.
Should be entertaining. Be well!

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH so you got my telepathy

I was even going to post today and ask if anyone had seen you around

well I put up with her and her group doing horrible things to me in the flesh and spirit for what 15 years or so

I think I was too complacent and patient wanting them to go away and get a life

however, it is another thing when it is my innocent child being attacked

I am amazed at how she targeted the man I was with and got with him in 2010, and how innocent she acts after all the horrible shit she had already done by then

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well I am taking this very serious

it is one thing to mess with me

I am Mother

but do NOT mess with my children

I have already started thinking about this matter

there will be NO mercy

You would think that it would be that easy for people to get their own lives and let others live in peace and happiness and not go out of your way to harm a person and their children for NO reason whatsoever

but that has NOT been the case with me for 36 years now dealing with Rachel, the Cosmetologist, and their Satanic BiSexual Cult that goes Above

However, they have PROVED NOTHING, I STILL AM WHO I AM

I AM WHO I AM

THEY HAVE PROVED NOTHING

Through all their evil criminal abominations and works of horrible things they have only proved what Evil Abominations of Filth and Shit they are on Earth and every other realm, that is all


I am who I am

Still am.

Now, that the voices for the most part have gone away and I have taken some days to survey the damage I am thinking about my plan to get my life back in order as it was in 2008 before they came upon me.

I really have tried and tried working in the Medical Field I think mostly because of Steve, but I am NOT really happy with it.

I think I want to go back to what I was doing.

I wonder what is going on with Diane these days?

She is constantly with me following me around in my dreams

Last night she came to me and mentioned "cocaine"

and I was sure the last time I saw her and she had the body of a 12yr old, that she was doing Meth


I said to her "What's the difference between Meth and Cocaine? I know you have been doing Cocaine since a teen with Angelo but I thought you have been doing Meth for awhile?"


and she said something, I can't remember and was bothered

and I said "I'm just worried about you Diane, that is all"


Even though she put this awful curse on me, she wasn't the last one to curse me, Robert did, and Rachel and others, and so NO wonder it was such a big thing to Mother for me to try to REMOVE the Curse, you have to wonder how many people just hate me because I speak the Truth to them and I actually care and just want to live my life and not get involved in their shit?


I wonder with Diane how long her looks are going to hold out. Once she loses that, she sure doesn't have nothing else besides being a good manipulator and a pathological liar. She could have done so well for herself by using these talents and her looks to become an Actress.

well the medical field when we arrived here in such a state seemed like a good deal

and in two years I could be a CMA and have good work, but it did not go that way at all

everything came against us

it was battle after battle and struggle after struggle

many times I just wanted to die to stop the pain and wondered why

it was so hard, day after day, year after year, trying and trying, and trying

and constant obstacles and people attacking

and then I stayed with it, because then I was on unemployment and they had a free CNA program and I had tried a few times to go the CNA course and couldn't do it, and there was a change in energy and I flew through it without ever studying


It was like, I know all this stuff


so I got some relief to help us eat and get some heat and things from those little jobs


but I don't know

I think I also stayed with the Medical Field because I had an alterior motive that I wanted it to bring me closer in a relationship with Steve. I thought he would see I was really trying here in NC despite everything and working in the Medical Field too and it would make us have that in common.

But, he never replied to my phone calls, emails, gifts I sent, text messages, nothing.

He just ended our friendship suddenly in 2010 when I asked him "What do you know about Spiritual Egypt! Tell Me! What do you know about Spiritual Egypt!!!!!!!!"

and all he would say was "Zero. Zero" and he disconnected his phone line and terminated our friendship.


Well, everyone left me for dead, except for Father in the Midst of the Earth. WOW was that something in 2010. Guess they learned God was REAL in those days.


Anyhow, Krystal couldn't believe that I also came back with a few items for Steve to mail for a Valentine's present and a friendship card for him.

She says, to someone who never replies. At least I am sending gifts to people who actually send me presents all the time.


But, I sent it. I never heard anything. Don't know if he got it or not. The last I heard from him was "Don't message me anymore"

so I didn't

I guess one day, I just have to come to terms with so much.

let me see

I have to go back and read that part in Revelation 16 about who had the 3 Frogs

because I just remembered in my dream last night

Diane had a frog about her face and she kept playing with it, then it was on the back of her head attached

and I kept telling her to get it off of her and kill it, to let me have it so I can kill it

but she would not let me kill the frog

and then I woke up

And the sixth angel poured out his vial upon the great river Euphrates; and the water thereof was dried up, that the way of the kings of the east might be prepared.

13 And I saw three unclean spirits like frogs come out of the mouth of the dragon, and out of the mouth of the beast, and out of the mouth of the false prophet.

14 For they are the spirits of devils, working miracles, which go forth unto the kings of the earth and of the whole world, to gather them to the battle of that great day of God Almighty.

15 Behold, I come as a thief. Blessed is he that watcheth, and keepeth his garments, lest he walk naked, and they see his shame.

the doctor agreed with what I have been doing and cut my medications to half the dosages

She had me on so many pills, well actually it is cut to less than half

I only have to take 4 pills a day now

I am aiming for a full recovery from all of this

Back to work on Monday

Still applying for other jobs as well

I can't make up my mind what I want to do


Just thinking about what needs to be done, but not any action to follow through with the thoughts yet

I need to get out of my rut and get busy

made some Huevos and Chorizo with hot sauce burritos for breakfast

so good

got my W2's for last year, wow I made like 8,600 dollars last year and these women are so so jealous of me and terrorizing my life and obsessed with me

they really want to live like me and have my life

but you know, despite the low amount we sent out hundreds of dollars in charity and gifts last year

there are just so many good causes to donate to, and friends who need a care package

I feel like money is circular and you have to keep giving to the less fortunate or just to ones who are a lot wealthier but maybe not so in other areas

those ones still need a care package and the expression of kindness and love

I was thinking that Alicia has NOT worked for many years now, and Rachel's son is 12 now and that Massive Child Support from Steven is going to run out in 6 years. Wonder what they are going to do?

Alicia is claiming now that she has the same conditions wrong with her as me and trying repeatedly to get SSI. I found out she had lied for years now, she did get her settlement from Worker's Comp, which was fraudulent claim anyhow, she lied and told them she had never been in a fight in her life and never been incarcerated and all kinds of shit, and that her finger was messed up from working there.

And we were in bad times, and I had sent her at times 500 hundred dollars at a time, and she did NOT offer to pay me back one dime. I was a little pissed about that, but didn't say anything. She apparently just ran through with the money.

Well, they both are enjoying living off of Steven.

I heard the others above tell someone that they needed to "Step Down" earlier

I wonder if Steven is affected by his relationship with Rachel and her works and lies and murders for so many years.

I mean I noticed he loved out of his Los Angeles Mansion he had lived in for many years, and I think he gave it to her. And you know he is paying out the ass for that child.


Yeah, Alicia and I were NOT involved but still around each other when I feel in love with Steven and she hated Steven.

Alicia was running with Rachel and they were terrorizing the hell out of me, but I could not actually prove it, only what the neighbors were telling me who was coming to the house.

Rachel and Alicia look like twins, and they mights as well be. Neither one of them has the ability to be Honest it seems, or stop their obsession with me and mine and their all their bullshit.

Well, let Steve keep supporting them in High Fashion and all their partying. He obviously enjoys it supporting and taking care of the worst pieces of Evil Shit and Abominations on Earth.

but, I rarely hear from Alicia these days and after I told her about my Phlebotomy and that too got destroyed

I am done with her

It was then, I started thinking, she has NOT worked in years, who the hell is she living off of?

And when Rachel started on with Krystal, it all made sense.


Steven is their Sugar Daddy

it really bothers me people who fraud the system and it is so many

I have tried since I got some little aid to get back to work and get well and become independent again and recover

but like the blacks next door, on Section 8 and Welfare, new Truck, and two new cars, and constant parade of people showing up drugged up and drunk all hours, and partying

yet, here we are with two old old vehicles which both are in need of repairs and trying to get the money together to take one to the shop

go figure


then the immigrant neighbor is getting offers for 400K year college room and board scholarships ALL FREE because she is an immigrant and they want to show diversity, and her GPA is lower than Krystal's ever was

but Krystal's is stuck with massive student loans because she is the AWFUL Unwanted American Citizen Student with a decent GPA

You know, I know what happened with Steven and he was targeted because they knew I was in love with him, and they set him up, big time

but he didn't know who I was, or what was going on

he didn't know about this group of women that had been terrorizing me since the age of 15

he didn't know that I knew about the realm Above, and other things, because I never talked about it with anyone

and I feel awful for him, because he got fooled big time and got stuck with her and supporting her


But, I myself, no matter what they do, I am NOT worried about it because Father has always seen us through and I know that it is a matter of time

The Lord says Vengeance is Mine, I shall Repay!

and HE does

I am telling you the Truth when I say there has NEVER been one person who did bad malicious things to me that it did not come back to them so horrific and severe that it again put the Fear of God in me

It will come back to this group, it is only a matter of time


and in the meantime, you know we have work to do around here

we are freezing and it is costing way too much to try and run these electric heaters, we need to see about getting some oil and see if the furnace will start up


there is so much to do but I have just finally gotten back to the point after so many years that I am actually awake all day

I think it was a combination of everything, but I think decreasing the medication dosages has helped


I was wondering about Revelation 16, and you know I think all the FROGS are in California, and I was thinking of also Edgar Cayce's prophecies of California but also some things I thought in 2010 based on a quatrain by Nostradamus.

I was thinking about how it says the river dried up and the way was made for the Kings of the East, but then I thought of Biden coming in and lifting all the travel restrictions on multiple countries.


I can say Diane has not lived the glamorous life or whatever she may have thought. She has been through some very disgusting things, and I am sure when I got her from Motel 6 that one year that she had been prostituting herself out for payment of her room for months. She looked horrific and I cleaned her up. Dyed and cut her hair, got her clothes, and all, took her in.

I mean she should have went into rehab as a teenager. She was such an abusive mother it was horrific, my Mom should have never of forced her to have the baby and get married. She should have gotten her an abortion and made her go to school and got her therapy.


But, who knows what day and age my Mom thought she was living in. Apparently women were to have NO education and it was all about find a man to take care of you as soon as you can walk and get married and have babies. That family was a nightmare in itself.

yeah, so I feel bad for Steven because he was totally set up and scammed by this evil group of women going above

you see, I had stopped dating, threw Alicia out, and had listed the house for sale, but then decided to rent it out and was moving

and I was telling everyone

no I can't date because a King is coming for me, and when he comes I am going to stay with him for the rest of my life and I am going to have another baby


then, like an idiot

I had put the Mercedes into the shop in Encino, and Alicia drove down to meet me in the Valley and she stayed at the motel with me that night and I sat up and was drinking and I told her "I love Steven. I really love Steve"

and that started her obsession further with Steven, though it was already bad, trying to interfere with me doing my work and any client I would meet with


So, in 2008 when I showed back up from the Midst of the Earth pregnant, Rachel and them all thought it was Steven's child

and she starts screaming "You bitch! Why won't you just die! You can't have his child! I was supposed to have his child!"

Then, in 2010, I saw the same Cosmetologist who had done that to me at 15, attach Rachel to Steven.

I was with Steven above and he got a phone call and they told him that they had a "Princess for him"

well that evil bitch is NO princess, she is an abomination from the pits of hell

I was reading that Gwen Stefani's marraige from her last husband was annulled by the RCC

well, that is not a big thing

we were Confirmed Anglicans and still are yes

but when we came here the only church we found that we liked was an old Catholic Church so we went through the whole process of becoming Confirmed Catholics

and I asked the Priest about my marriages and discussed it at length

and he told me that according to the Church I have NEVER been married and those marriages would be thrown out like they never existed when I decided at some point to get married again

the reason being is that I NEVER got married in a Church, and had nothing to do with the Church so therefore it was NOT recognized as a legal marriage or a marriage at all

so it is really not a big thing

But, if I do get married again, I will get married in a Church I think, I am still kind of undecided because I like the Scottish Handfasting, maybe both Rites I will do

I was thinking back and trying to remember

Steve joined with me in Spirit on April 17 2008

but it seems like at some point he left

I am not sure but it seems he did

because then a lot had happened and I was still under attack and in bad shape

and I remember coming to

and laying in bed crying and crying

and then he was there

he was there holding me

and I heard him say "I love you"

and I tried to hang on to his words

and I felt him holding me and was comforted

and drifted back off somewhere


Recovery has taken so many years



But, with that said, I was just thinking of how hard it has been for us during those years to get by

and people who live so well off frauding the system

I really feel the USA needs to overhaul its Welfare and Section 8 programs among many things it needs to overhaul

I feel if a woman gets pregnant the first time, then okay, if she doesn't want an abortion, then help her out and get her some job and parental training

but cut it off after the first child

don't made Welfare a business to sit and party and keep having children for more money

I think we really NEED to make Birth Control FREE, and Vasectomies and Sterilization FREE as well

People should have no excuse to have children that they leave as another homeless on the streets, abuse, or raise to be a criminal thug, or drug addict, or whore, and now you can even say Internet Whore and Man-Whore

because it is rampid all these young ones posting their ass and tits all over the internet, never learned at age 2 to put on clothes


And I think that Birth Control measures need to be FREE and Welfare NEEDS to stop being a business for income for having more unwanted children because

society today is filled with whores and man-whores who can NOT control themselves and fuck anything they can

so they NEED all the MEDICAL help they can get to stop the unwanted children all over, and all the child abuse


AS far as Section 8........able bodied people should NOT have it. Why do these ones have it next door? Another one of many that is the revolving door of this Section 8 rental all drug party trash. All blacks.

Section 8 should be for the Elderly, the TRULY Sick, and the Disabled Veterans. Period.

Because after 1 Child, that woman should have learned her lesson and be working feeding and caring for that child and learning how expensive it is to raise a child. Hence, I was NOT about to have another baby to raise on my own until it was given for me to do so in 2006, and then it was assured that the King would be there.

Raising 1 child on my own was enough.

And if people learned the same lesson they would NOT do the things they do. If they had to work, and buy food, and pay rent.

I think what is the most horrific disgrace on the USA for a supposed 1st World Country is that we do NOT have a FREE 4 Year EDucation for all American Citizens


it is horrific that most people can not even count back change at the store

we are so illiterate

and I will tell you

Education and constantly taking classes while going through this was a saving grace

despite my failures in some of the programs, I kept on until I got my Degree and many Certifications and I am going to keep on

because the school work and forcing myself to learn new things and subjects is very good for my mind

it makes me a calmer and more stable person

And I was NOT like these other people who wanted to try and find a way to live free on the Government, I kept trying to work. It started out initially that I applied for 300 hundred jobs until I got a little job for a few hours a week to go scan bar codes at the supermarkets

and I did that for a few months and it was too much for me, I was still in such a state

but I did not let it deter me

I kept looking for other jobs that maybe I could do

I worked all kinds of part time and temporary jobs, each one like a little stepping stone

then I would relapse and be under attack so bad

but I would get up and try again


I think Education is very important and some kind of work.


I think Diane would have been a different person if she had of been forced into Rehab and cleaned up, and gotten some skilled educational training and been forced to at least work part time. But living her life off of others and drugging it up was no good for her, she just remained a pathological, though very funny and entertaining, liar and manipulating conartist.

I mean Diane was funny and fun to be around. She was quite the entertainer. It is such a shame. That beautiful skin gone to waste. She was blessed with physical beauty and threw it away, she didn't develop the inside.

have you ever seen a really beautiful woman and then you talk to her and you go "oh, she is so ugly, yuck"

Me, unlike Diane was always told how ugly I was and how I was not part of the family. So at a young age I guess it was then that I really started working on my Inner Self

I remember when I was a teen, I lied about my age and paid 700 hundred dollars to attend "The Forum" this intensive workshop where you are locked in all day and they tear down your false self and get to the real you

and later I did the Anthony Robbins series, and the John Bradshaw, healing the inner child series, and I even did AA for a few years and did the whole 12 steps though I never really identified as an alcoholic, I just liked the intensive moral undertaking of the program

I have read so many things and spiritual doctrines and beliefs from Shambala Spiritual Warrior, to Energy Healing, to Wicca, to the Vedic texts and more


I felt like I have to develop this inner person

I took Krystal to so many Museums and historical places and we pondered them together and we watched numerous documentaries. I remember one weekend when she was in 3rd grade we watched Ghandhi life story all weekend and her teacher was shocked to find out that she had loved it.

Our house was filled with all kinds of art from statues of Isis and Osiris, and Bast and Thoth, to Paintings from Paris, and Buddha and the Indian Medicine wheel, and wolves and indian plates and sage and candles

It was a mixture of everything

The funny thing about the statues of Ancient Egypt is that I was completely compelled to buy them but I did NOT know who they were until all of this started much later.

They were just pieces that I saw that I had to have for the house.


Oh yes, and we had Skulls too, fake ones of course. I did not did anyone up, well not yet. LOL

My whole life

if someone expressed care for me or was with me

I felt that it was because of ME, the ME inside

NOT at all in anyway of how I looked

and to tell you the Truth, I can absolutely say that Steven loves ME for ME, not the condition he found me in or the state, or how I looked


But, I have NEVER thought anyone loved me for my looks

no not at all

Those that LOVE ME, LOVE ME, they LOVE ME and WHO I AM

well I went to go get my back injections yesterday

it did not go well at all to say the least

I am tired of writing this online diary

I don't know what good it has done, if any

I want to know how to delete this thread for good

So all this shit went down and happened long ago

However today heaven is in the midst the earth with Jesus and no matter how much fucking torture they have put me through I will not join them above

Hey Jen! Hope y'all are doing fine.
I've not watched the Trailer Parks much but catching up.

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haha crazy video

snow on the ground this morning.

I am waiting for an MRI on my back. I refused to go back in and have more injections after what happened last Friday, it was horrific.

I was screaming and crying. I don't think that MF numbed me at all, it was like I was getting 20 epidurals and my back was worse, I was drunk for 2 days afterwards was all I could do screaming in pain

Krystal was such an Angel as always doing anything she could do help and got me to bed

She has taken me down there several times but they refuse to give out pain meds and they wanted me to repeat the procedure under anesthesia but I had a very bad feeling about it

I had been under anesthesia before and I don't know what happened but when I came too the nurses were scared to death and said "honey don't let anyone put you under anesthesia again"

that was a long time ago, but I am not sure what happened

so I am in a lot of pain now, worse than it was, whatever he did, he made it worse

and I said "No, I want an MRI before I have anymore procedures done"


I haven't had too many voices lately just several times I hear women saying "she won" or "I'm done"

I have no idea what they are talking about I am just here going on about life as I can

Talked to my Mom last night and she said Jenny it was on the News that they finally discovered what caused CoVid, the Bats in Wuhan. And I said, "Mom they have been saying that for a long time now" She said "It was on the news they finally proved it"

It reminded me of the 4th Horse of Revelation but moreso just leave the bats alone and you won't have these problems.

Hope all is well with you. Take care. Love Jen

Wow, I need to catch up on the thread.
I'm pretty good for the ware and tare.
Letting the beard (and the eyebrows/ears) grow out.
My reflection scares me some mornings.
Reflections are good, right?

No snow, OR ICE, here; there's no water pressure this am.
Kinda reminds me of home, which is being totally renovated.
Got my guitars here, which makes it feel like home.
I have fun with Kiki, our feline companion. Meow for now!