AND WHILE IT BECAME CLEAR TO ME......LATER.......THAT MANY DID NOT SEEM TO KNOW THE MAN I KNEW AND HAD GROWN TO LOVE SO MUCH..........SO MUCH IT NEARLY KILLED ME FOR YEARS........

HE WAS ALWAYS DIFFERENT AND GOOD TO ME.

I WATCHED SUCH BEAUTIFUL WOMEN COME AND GO, AND I COULDN'T FIGURE IT OUT, HE SEEMED I WOULD SAY QUITE BOTHERED AND LIKE I WOULD SAY COMPLETELY DISGUSTED WITH THEM........

BUT EVERY WEEK FOR YEARS, I WAS TO MEET WITH HIM, ON THURSDAY. SO, FOR THIS REASON, MANY STARTED ASSUMING MANY THINGS..........BUT IT WAS ALWAYS BUSINESS.........


IN JANUARY 2008, FREEMASON TOM ARLITZ BUSTED OPEN THE DOOR TO ME IN BABYLON.......HE HAD TOLD ME BEFORE THAT HE WAS THE ONE THEY SENT IN WHEN ONE GOT AWAY..........AND MANY HORRIBLE THINGS WOULD START TO HAPPEN


MANY HORRIBLE THINGS.........BUT, STILL I SAID NO WORD TO HIM ABOUT THESE THINGS..........


NOW I DO NOT CRY IN FRONT OF PEOPLE........BUT THE FIRST DAY I HAD MET THAT MAN, I LOOKED AT HIM, AND I JUST STARTED CRYING UNCONTROLLABLY.........AND I DID NOT KNOW WHAT TO THINK OF MYSELF.......OR WHAT HE THOUGHT........BUT THEN IT WOULD COME TO BE WE WOULD START TO DO BUSINESS TOGETHER


SO IN 2008, I STILL TOLD NO ONE, AS I WAS NOT ALLOWED TO TALK YET..........AND I GO TO SEE HIM, AND HE SAID TO ME "HOW IS THAT DREAM JOB COMING ALONG"

WELL I HAD BEEN OFFERED OUT OF THE BLUE A NICE GOVT JOB, THE WORST MISTAKE I WOULD MAKE..........


AND I SAID "I USED TO THINK IT WAS EVERYONE ELSE. BUT NOW I THINK IT IS JUST ME. I FEEL LIKE I AM AN ALIEN ON EARTH" AND I JUST STARTED TO CRY....


AND HE SAID "NO. IT IS NOT YOU. THEY JUST DON'T CARE."


AND WELL, MUCH HAPPENED, BUT I THINK SOMETIMES TO MYSELF...........THAT THEY DID ME A FAVOR........BECAUSE I PASSED...........AND I BECAME KNOWN AS GENERATION X, HUMAN. I THINK TO MYSELF THAT PEOPLE THINK THEY CAN OUTSMART GOD ALMIGHTY.........BUT GOD KNOWS EVERYTHING.......AND EVERYTHING ALWAYS GOES ACCORDING TO WHAT HE WANTS.


AT TIMES I AM PATIENT, I BIDE MY TIME, AT TIMES, I RAN, AT TIMES I STAND MY GROUND AND FIGHT........BUT IT IS ALWAYS ACCORDING TO HIS WILL.