Re: I AM SORRY I CANNOT FINISH THIS BOWL THEY HAVE GIVEN ME
NOW, I HAVE FOUND OUT ONLY THIS YEAR THAT ALOT OF MY FIRM BELIEFS ALIGN ALOT WITH CONFUSCIOUS

IN 1992, I WAS ENGAGED TO BE MARRIED......BUT I COULD NOT SHAKE IT........SOMETHING JUST WASN'T RIGHT.....I AT THE TIME WAS STILL HIDDEN IN DARKNESS AND MY LIFE JUST SEEMED LIKE I WAS ALWAYS WONDERING.........AFTER 1985.......AND NEVER SURE WHAT TO DO........

AND SO, I SAID TO GOD, BECAUSE I FELT THAT I SHOULD JUST RUN......"FATHER, IF YOU WANT ME TO MARRY THIS MAN, THEN PLEASE GIVE ME A CHILD, HE WANTS TO HAVE CHILDREN."

I CANNOT REMEMBER WHERE I WENT, BUT I RETURNED WITH SEVERAL BOTTLES OF CHINESE HERBS...I REMEMBER ONLY ONE WAS CALLED "GOTU KOLA"

A WEEK LATER I FEEL VERY SICK. MY EX HUSBAND SAID TO ME, I THINK YOU ARE PREGNANT, I SAID I CANNOT GET PREGNANT' HICH WAS THE DOWNFALL OF MY PREVIOUS MARRIAGE TO A VERY WEALTHY MAN......

AND HE WENT AND GOT A TEST, AND I WAS, A WEEK LATER YET, I DO NOT REMEMBER DUE TO MANY THINGS WE HAD HAD SEX LATELY.

ALOT OF WHAT I KNOW INSIDE ME, JUST KNOW, IS ACTUALLY OLD CHINESE BELIEFS.........DO NOT SLEEP WITH UNCOVERED MIRRORS.......AND SUCH.....

IT IS COMMON I FOUND THAT THE SO CALLED PAGANS WILL OFTEN TRAP EVIL SPIRITS IN MIRRORS.

CHINESE PEOPLE ACTUALLY DO NOT HAVE A PROBLEM WITH JESUS BECAUSE THEY SAY THAT MANY THINGS HE TALKED ABOUT ALIGN WITH CONFUSCIOUS.

THEY ARE VERY MORAL PEOPLE, THEY DO NOT CONDONE HOMOSEXUALITY OR ISLAM. VERY SMART, BUT THEN AGAIN, THEY ARE SO ANCIENT IN THEMSELVES, THEY HAVE BEEN AROUND FOR THOUSANDS OF YEARS, AND THEY HAVE LEARNED THROUGH MANY SAD THINGS......

BUT, I DO FEEL AT TIMES, THAT MONKS ARE SPYING ON ME AS WELL. AND I ONLY WISH BEING A CAULBEARER LIKE THE DALIA LAMA THAT THEY COULD HONOR WHAT HE HAS TO SAY AS WELL.