I’m stuck in a cycle of sorrow .

Dark Night of the Soul.

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My Dark Night lasted over ten years,
and left me with a permanent feeling
of disappointment, it seems.

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Yeah does the dark night of the soul ever end?

Everytime I ask "spiritual" people about it they just ignore me or look at me like I have 2 heads

"A man once said the blues ain't nothin' but a good man feelin' bad. Thinkin' about the woman he once was with"



Ry cooder captured it well in this

I know the feeling. Usually it's because they are not prepared to give you their usual churchy platitudes. They aren't prepared to tell you that people before you died much worse. And that you might want to be glad that it's not as bad as someone else's, because there is no comfort in that. But it's the truth.

The sooner we embrace this tough approach. and turn our face into the wind. So that God will see us. that we chose not to curse him but to think of those that came before and that we are truly willing to say "come what may". In that, we become hard like stone. But alone with God who sees our heart is melted from sadness. And He WILL be with us in those moments. I know.

It may not for some. I'm wondering at this point because time is running out. I have hope though. Sometimes this song make me feel better. Why I don't know.

It feels like some of us are doing the grieving for masses of people still unconscious. Very heavy burdens. It can become overwhelming if like the op you have also had to take important losses. It feels like you may have failed. I’m like the op. Old and battle-worn, afraid I have failed. Tired of everything.

Trust the process at play in your situation and pay attention to your dreams. The hidden or Shadowed side of life is every bit as important as what you see by daylight. This is the ultimate hero’s journey of self discovery. If you can awaken to how you project the past upon experiences, you will discover that fear is a fertile garden, and once transformed, becomes that place where your dreams become reality.

Sometimes the Obstruction is in the mindset and Keeping Still to observe what events are revealing, you can see the situation differently. Sometimes the Obstruction is on the path because we have wandered away from ourselves. During a time of Obstruction the only real blockage is an unwillingness to change. Anything that comes to block your progress is simply life’s pursuit of a better way. Yes, circumstances may be frighteningly unfamiliar, but there is also great promise of excitement as the old way transforms into a new way.

A little Tao for you in your down time. Why not wake up each morning, throw the coins and read. You may find it uplifting and inspiring, even if nothing else a little entertaining.

Search council of time on YouTube, I think you will enjoy it. We are all going thru stronger trials currently, Father is getting ready to move somewhere and with so many feeling it, it’s gonna be big.

Remember, you are a child of God, he calls whom he chooses, and not a single one will be lost or led astray. Refined as gold, he strengthens us thru the fire. If we never expierenced sorrow, how would we ever know Gods love, true blessings seldom appear as blessings to the flesh, but the spirit reveals truth.

I would say mine ended but not suddenly.
It faded a bit here, a bit there,
it didn't feel like an ending
and perhaps it wasn't, fully.

From 2004 to 2014
I walked a hard and strange path
like an eternal plane trip
from city to city

the 2014-2016 period
was like a bumpy landing approach

which crash-landed in 2017
and left me ship-wrecked on a deserted
but fully stocked island.

It is a very heavy burden with no material support, quite the opposite. This system/matrix is designed to chew and spit out those on this path. I feel the same but get enough glimpses of a new present and future to keep going. When will it end? But of that day and hour knoweth no man

"but then I think of Jesus and that he brought me to God."

Well OP don't be all silly like in Fight Club where they let go of the steering wheel, heh

But really you do need to relax. You wind your own clockspring OP.

What I mean (and to use another clock analogy since we are all clocks with our hearts ticking)

The pendulum of a clock, as it swings back and forth, needn't go this far, let's say, it only needs to swing to and fro, such that the little gear inside, clicks forward. Often, just a tiny back and forth motion, will do.

Think of the humming bird, as he hovers, he is dying. Does he mind? This Summer amongst my plants in my geenhouse I found a gorgeous little hummingbird, dead, he had gotten in, and flied his little heart, right out. Just lying there so pristine. I did cry, as I often have to shoo them out.

I buried him in the garden under a nice rock. I felt he had earned it. Red breasted, green body, amazing. Literally his tiny dead form will be in my mind, forever.

Therefore, considering the gentle and fragile elements that give us so much joy, like hummingbird or any bird, crows, even can be charming. Or pigeons, or for me, to hear the cry of our hawk nearby. Or to go up into the wild and see the ospreys and the eagles, wow, majestic.

And these lovely beings, only live, thus and thus a time OP. If you were to weep for all of them, why, you'd spend every day crying all day. That kinda sounds fun to me, since yes, they are ALL worth shedding tears for.

"Does one bird fall from the sky and your heavenly father not know this? Therefore, be at peace, for all your needs will be met."

you can't know real Truth
without putting a foot into Dark and Light,
it's an elusive thing to discover and achieve.

things go through cycles
and disappointment is often a result
of dysfunctional beliefs or expectations.

things change underfoot and one day you wake up.

[The tears I cry for other people...]

saddest fucking link to a story I have ever read.

I hope the 'world' that made you live like this in the first place, doesn't/didn't happen...

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The tweakers of human history are on notice too.

In no way here am I trying to take christ from you or taint your belief system. Merely bringing forth ideas that along with your bible study endorses christ like behaviour.

Now, another word of advice to help your physical manifestation maintain the essence of your spirit is sleep. The intimacy between the two states of being (flesh and spirit) is great so to avoid a tug of war, while in the flesh, good sleep is essential.

Make your sleeping habitat dark. Real dark. In darkness your body creates melatonin. Then when light is introduced all melatonin production is turn off and the melatonin is converted to serotonin. The chemical behind Your physical manifestations ability to feel happiness and love on a deep level.

I look forward to doing a thread soon on knowing Christ, to help break some of the perceived shackles in trying to know yourself in a christ like following, without fear of idolatry. I hope you can find yourself there to participate, even if it sounds like an absurd proposition.

Logos Ain Soph Aur

Awesome story and history! I do believe evil senses God is moving. Freaking out

Cycle out, ride the wave, navigate back to joy, it will be clear where to go.

That's about how it feels when Yeshua will arrive on the scene when it's time for him to come back to the Earth.

Endure. This too shall pass. A brighter day awaits you.

You are loved completely. And unconditionally. God’s Love does not waver.

Hope you're okay OP.

We are all failed human beings.God knows this, but loves us unconditionally, as long as we show an effort to do what is right. His Love for us is beyond our understanding, and it is real, and surrounds all of us who trust in Him.

Perhaps it's because you are mixing newagism with God's truth.

Oil and water don't mix.

Stick with God's word.

These people talking about "sorrow," for the state of the world, have NO IDEA what real sorrow is.

Wait until you are confronted by the Living God, and your hearts are exposed.

Then you can talk about Sorrow...

Read Psalms and David's writings. He knew what Sorrow really is.

You let them keep you in a state of sorrow. You need to stop giving the world that much power over your emotions.

Lucifer is always here for-a you

WE R IN A TIME OF...'FLUX'..THE WORLD WILL CHANGE AND WE NEED TO HOLD STILL UNTIL IT'S KINDA BROKEN...REALLY BROKEN..I GUESS, AND THEN WE WILL FIND IT MUCH EASIER TO 'HAVE A CALLING' SO TO SPEAK,,,UNTIL THEN, WE ARE IN A STATE OF ...CALL IT EXISTENTIAL ANGST...I GOT THAT FROM A
'NORTHERN EXPOSURE' EPISODE..

GOOD LUCK WITH 'IT' WHATEVER IT IS...GOOD LUCK FOR ALL OF U.S. !