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| Anonymous Coward User ID: 77685524  United States06/01/2019 10:00 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | |
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| Polkahonkus
User ID: 45386803 United States06/01/2019 10:09 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | My father died last week...I found his body.. Quoting: Dace Thread: My Dad Died....... It's weird....I've felt like I should feel bad because I haven't shed a tear for him.....but I can't make myself feel bad for not doing so.... He was hooked on prescription meds when I was growing up, fanatically Pentecostal religious and like a Jeckyl and Hyde that could snap at anything. I was chased out of the house with a baseball bat in middle school because he found a soggy Playboy mag I found in the woods.... In highschool, we lived in a duplex....I stayed and rented out the 2nd half after graduation because I didn't want to leave my mom and my little brother alone with him.....After I was 21 he chased me out with a .44 mag because he saw me come in with a bottle of whisky... He also used to wake my mother up in the morning by dry-clicking a 12 gauge shotgun to her head and telling her she deserved to die for polluting her holy temple (body) that god had given her. Thank god my mother finally divorced him,,,,,but he got custody of my little brother. When my lil' bro turned 18, he left with the clothes on his back and turned up halfway across the country just to get away from the fucker. . .... ...... But yeah......I never patched things up but I eventually started keeping in contact, especially after Dad got sick and needed help...I may hate the things he did and how he screwed up everyone's lives but he's my dad.....I wouldn't be here without him. But so far....not one damn tear for him....I've tried... I've tried to summon up good memories, etc....but nothing. Then.. Today......my kids' guinea pig died, and they've been devastated. Having to see them deal with the grief of their beloved pet and friend.....drawing pictures of themselves with their little buddy.....left me in tears. Been trying to take their minds off of it....so I just went through my 5 yr old daughter's 'beauty shop'....I now have blue, yellow, green and pink finger/toenails and my face resembles something between a Klingon and an ugly-ass geisha. I know....not the place for this...just had to vent and I can't post this shit on FB.  Dude...wow. I know...lol Whenever I get his ashes and go plant him in the family plot......it's a toss-up between just pissing on the spot or planting some flowers first and telling myself I'm fertilizing them. Can't force a tear for my dad but I lose it over a damn guinea pig. I'm pissed at myself for not being mad at myself....It's a completely new fucked-up feeling that I am not enjoying. That sounds like tension and numbness. If you can be silent and still inside it will all work itself out. It’s not like it’s possible to do it wrong. |
| MissCleo
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| One Shot - Make the Best of It
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| esoteric Morgan
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| DeploraVision ™
User ID: 77588906 United States06/02/2019 01:41 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Dace, I met my real Dad when I was 12. He was brutally strict, and made a 'paddle' out of a 2x6 that had 3/4" holes drilled in it so he could swing it faster when he beat us for whatever. I worked for him for 15 years, never took a sick day, and was a slave basically. He was a former Marine, total hard ass. We eventually got along at times like brothers when we would go fishing and working on cars, away from his bitch wife. But the bastard would get in his mood swings now and then to remind me how ugly and violent he could be. I felt guilty when he died because I didn't cry. I can only say that I felt relieved. I didn't have to try to impress him anymore. I don't think he made it through the pearly gates, and even that makes me feel relieved that I won't have to deal with him on the other side. He had a lot of talent, and was headstrong as hell; built 7 houses without any training or school, from the blueprints to the permits, foundation, framing, electrical, plumbing and finish work. But for whatever reason I'm relieved that he's gone. I kinda know how you feel man. Comments have been disabled. |
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| Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 76206631 United States06/02/2019 01:55 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Dace, I met my real Dad when I was 12. He was brutally strict, and made a 'paddle' out of a 2x6 that had 3/4" holes drilled in it so he could swing it faster when he beat us for whatever. Quoting: DeploraVision ™ I worked for him for 15 years, never took a sick day, and was a slave basically. He was a former Marine, total hard ass. We eventually got along at times like brothers when we would go fishing and working on cars, away from his bitch wife. But the bastard would get in his mood swings now and then to remind me how ugly and violent he could be. I felt guilty when he died because I didn't cry. I can only say that I felt relieved. I didn't have to try to impress him anymore. I don't think he made it through the pearly gates, and even that makes me feel relieved that I won't have to deal with him on the other side. He had a lot of talent, and was headstrong as hell; built 7 houses without any training or school, from the blueprints to the permits, foundation, framing, electrical, plumbing and finish work. But for whatever reason I'm relieved that he's gone. I kinda know how you feel man. |
| TheOracle'sCookie
User ID: 76948143 United States06/09/2019 02:50 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | That title would make a great movie title, Dace! ...But I have to say your story about your experiences with your dad are probably more the material for Stephen King! I am so sad for you that you need to suffer this way in grieving about your father. Those of us who suffered what is in these days called "child abuse" (they didn't call ANYTHING short of killing your kid "abusive" back in the day--and being the abused child of an x-Marine (WWII I would assume?)...is the worst of the worst for horror stories. I have my own...but my blood cousin (first cousin) had it much worse, being a boy it was much more harsh I think My uncle survived with horrible PTSD from fighting the last battles at Guadalcanal in WWII. The horrors he must have witnessed translated into the so called "discipline" he visited on his kids, sadly. I'm sure when my uncle took his own life (and Doug found him shot with his own rifle in the basement) he DID NOT CRY for his father. Sadly, the kids never knew the bright, sensitive and really handsome young man my uncle had been (up to 21) when he joined as a volunteer in WWII. The military experience pretty much drove him mad...and the family after the war had to deal with all that PTSD. It is a terrible legacy that all the "red white and blue" hero stories never touch. Another cousin's dad survived Pearl Harbor (The S.S.Arizona) by swimming through gasoline fires when the ship sank. HIs PTSD followed him as well, with the "legacy" leaving abuse--into madness--throughout their surviving family as well. His 4 daughters are certifiably insane and the 8 surviving grand kids are all addicts. You won't hear about THAT on the "D-Day Celebration Show" on PBS. Hope you get passed this phase...I'm sorry you must go through this. "The sins of the father are VISITED on the sons." Numbers 14 : The LORD is long-suffering, and of great mercy, forgiving iniquity and transgression, and by no means clearing the guilty, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the sons to the third and fourth generation. "Know ONE thing absolutely...and you will UNDERSTAND everything. Walt Whitman "Leaves of Grass" "...Buckle up buttercups cuz this shit is going to go biblical." GLP'er Thread: Update Pg14 2 Trees of Genesis! Alien Covenant Ridley Scott's new Movie: Carries Message on DNA and Ark of the Covenant! Video Thread: Updated: The Radcliffe WAVE Discovered along Milky Way's Dark Rift! Is this LaViolette's Super Wave? Thread: "Founder of Analytical Psychology," Carl Jung Called "Disturbed" Due to His "Red Book!" Video Thread: Greatest Secret of the United States, Causes of the Ice Age and Nova, Thread: 2-23-2020 pg. 8 Big Update: The DAVINCI EQUINOX CODE: Ancient Equinox temples were WARNINGS not "celebrations" of the sun." Thread: Disney's TV Series "LOST" MARATHON! Numbers/Script Match Future News! 2018-2020 Target Years. |
