Help me, I hate myself, I hate my life, I wanna change! :( God help me!

Yeah, I do know.

I however cannot materialize your ponzi cash.

Or find a way to earn any that doesn't require me to literally sell my soul.

You have a rogue program running in the background of your mind implanted by the Archons of institutionalized society. FEAR

Fear is an illusion. It doesn't exist. it is a construct of the mind developed for evolutionary purposes and exploited by those who wish to CTRL you.

You have two choices. Either take back CTRL of your life and conquer your fears, or live in subjugation to them and never earn a real Sol.

Christ is the Light. The Light will not return to you by watching and waiting for it. Christ will only return to those who change their hearts. You already know your reality is a reflection of your mindset. You already know the solution to fixing your operating system as you have properly identified the virus. So are you going to allow fear to keep you from uninstalling it and fixing your mental computer?

The subconscious mind is everything and its beliefs from your reality. You have been led to believe you are a coward and have no power, and so it has become so for you. You must now uninstall that rogue software and rewrite the subconscious code into something that serves you. perhaps "I am the bravest man in the world and I fear nothing, not even death itself!"

At first it will feel like make believe. Such is the process of the mind to first imagine and play and then those thought holograms create an etheric structure which can then be manifested into physical reality.

just like playing a musical instrument, you must repeat that which you wish to learn a thousand times a day until it forms a new "groove" in your subconscious mind. As your frequency changes and you stay dedicated to this practice over the course of months (everyday re-affirm these words a thousand times to yourself) it will gradually take hold into your everyday life. You will find yourself committing small acts of courage, and then bigger and then bigger until you are of the belief that you are not afraid of anything and you are willing to take adventures just for the fun of where they lead.

Rinse and repeat this process for any rogue programs that do not serve you and re-write them as your inner Light inspires you to see fit.

As you begin to take back your FREE WILL you stop being a part of the matrix of CTRL and the Light will begin to shine within you. You will find this Light has the power to reshape your reality as it is the Light of Truth, Wisdom and Reason. It is the Light of pure consciousness and since everything in your reality is thought, this Light becomes the ultimate Source of power.

You will reconnect with G-d through the Light of Christ, align yourself to the true will of your higher self and obtain the Gnosis required to set yourself free.

Thought + Emotion = Action
Father + Mother = Child
Positive + Negative = Reality

The Holy Trinity is a Triangle of Free Will which results in ACTION.

If you are sincere, this Gnosis will change your life.
If you are not sincere, you will remain subjugated to the illusion in ignorance.

Make your choice.
Make your reality.
Make your stand.

First step is to know we are broken...


Sing this , this is what she did we can own things and disown so disown it first


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I am going to Church to pray for myself. Join me please in prayers, in 22 minutes! Thank you..

Half of the Christian music of late is about fear because the Holy Spirit is moving and we can have no fear. Look at your gifts and Jesus tells us take up the Cross daily for a reason. Ask forgivness then leave past and start new daily...

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You seem obsessed with getting a "good" job. fuck that, just get a JOB. Work hard and let your advancement be determined by your good, HARD work. Make the decision to not be lazy anymore.

Yes, Clean up the Body of Christ. Do you think he can hear you through all that Pig Brine?

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Not too old to join the military. They'll shape you.

Hi Op.
Sorry to hear you are so down.
All i know for sure is, that things WILL 100% get better.
33 is not old at all and if you hold on it will work out okay for you.
You say you are into Computers. How about trying to earn a bit extra by either teaching others about computers or doing tasks for others using a computer.
If it is purely the gaming aspects of computers then perhaps do some vids for Youtube.
4 thousand is not that much to pay off. Just ensure that all people you owe money to get a monthly payment and try to live within your means.
Most people are scared, that is the current human condition.
What would help is a daily routine of some simple weight training and other sports. 10 minutes a day doing something for your body will within a month show a difference and should give you more self esteem.

Finally, believe in yourself. Pretty sure Jesus would want that.

Take care and be strong.

You will not find in church that which you do not already possess. There is no reason you cannot take a moment of silence wherever you are and make a vow to begin to think, feel and act differently.

Stop thinking of G-d and Christ as something "out there" and real eyes that it is something you harness within yourself.

The best thing you can do to reconnect with the Divine is to believe you are already connected. As you change your beliefs the YOUniverse will meet you half way and you will begin to notice the synchronicity that accompany the changes in your thoughts and emotions. This is your sign that you are changing your vibration.

Hold your thoughts on that which you wish to become as though you are already there. Repeat the affirmations a thousand times a day to yourself as if you are already that which you affirm. Pretend you feel like the perfected person you see yourself as.

Do this for even one week and you will be astounded at the coincidences that occur in your life. When this happens, know that this is the truth of who YOU really are and continue on the path ardently. Stay the course unwavering and you will surely arrive at your destination. It can be no other way. This is not pseudo science. This is physical fact that where attention goes, energy flows.

The church does not hold your fate in its hands. Only YOU hold that power with the choices you make. Open your mind and become aware of what I AM telling myself from my point of view. Awaken YOU who is but part of ME. Together let us unveil the mystery!

Be gone darkness from my eye! Flee from my Light! Your shadow holds no power over the Truth!

I AM U.
Hear me speaking not through the words on your screen, but from the deepest part of you. You know this to be true. I am the strength within you to overcome. Take hold of yourself and lift yourself out of your ignorance so that The ONE may awaken within your heart. It is TIME.

Prayers said.

You've left it very late to work now. An empty resume will put employers off. My advice: Find a woman willing to keep you. Become a kept man, stay home and raise the kids. Great life!

Put religion aside for the time being and focus on building a career.

Prayers for one self are selfish prayers. God helps those who want to help others.

That's not a gift, it's a curse.

Get a government job.
Who cares at this point its all going to shit anyway.

Yes its gonna suck but you will make some bank

are you pisces? born feb 19 - march 20?

i ask cuz you sound a lot like me. luckily god gifted me with a stable job so far, but once that is gone i also have not cultivate any skills. my brother is constantly encouraging me to learn coding from places like codeacademy.com in like 2-3 years of self-learning anyone can learn enough to have marketable skills.

this isn't an immediate solution, but if you find some job that can make ends meet in the meantime, i would strongly recommend this. it seems intimidating but he says he works with dumb people all the time and literally anyone can learn

goodluck

That is good advice. To that I would add....look for opportunities, no mastter how small, never pass one up, grab everyone regardless. If you pass up opportunities, they stop showing up...just one of those things an old man finally can see. If you grab the opportunities, they multiply. Good Luck!!!

praying for you.

1st: Forgive yourself and move forward
second: never, never, never, never give up.
pray for you, GOD PRESENT

True, real and beautiful.
Thank you for this beautiful reminder.

You live on the third floor? I was sure you were a Hindu.

Get yerself a New Jerusalem Russ Calendar

You have lost your free will to the program.

Here, This will help you to get it back.

Start here, praying for you:

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I had a lot of similar issues.

Took me years to get free but you can do it.

This guy has many, many good teachings on all this:

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You know what they say. No matter where you go there you are!

You need to take a walk. Breath fresh air, you will be fine.