Help me, I hate myself, I hate my life, I wanna change! :( God help me!

The person to ask is God. Ask him to lead you and help you know his prompting. And then obey, one step at a time.

i worked in canada with a guy from poland, must be some program where polish can work in canada. do that. new fresh experience in a mountain resort town and u will make pretty good money and have ur housing supplied. mountain town was jasper ab. u said u were into computers, so u could do night auditor job or front desk. easy work.