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Light of my Little Left Eye
(OP) User ID: 75822891  United States08/12/2019 09:45 PM  Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation |  OIC. You think yourself a super. That's fine. Many have broken themselves. OP..I'm always in your corner. Bait or not. And I know you know. [link to www.youtube.com (secure)]  I absolutely adore "Borderline" by Madonna! One of the last times me and OP connected..the bar next to where she was..was decimated by an active shooter. [link to en.wikipedia.org (secure)] The next day started the Camp Fires..where people burned alive in their car [link to en.wikipedia.org (secure)] The Westworld set burned to the ground.. Who remembers? Because I remember everything.. Everything! [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] Borderline was the name of the Bar... The Camp Fire was the deadliest and most destructive wildfire in California history. It is also the deadliest wildfire in the United States since the Cloquet fire in 1918 and is high on the list of the world's deadliest wildfires; it is the sixth-deadliest U.S. wildfire overall. It was one of the world's costliest natural disasters in 2018. Named after Camp Creek Road, its place of origin, the fire started on November 8, 2018, in Butte County, in Northern California. After exhibiting extreme fire spread, fireline intensity, and spotting behaviors through the wilderness community of Concow, an urban firestorm formed in the densely populated foothill town of Paradise. The fire caused at least 86 civilian fatalities, with two people still missing, and injured 12 civilians, two prison inmate firefighters, and three other firefighters. It covered an area of 153,336 acres (62,053 ha) (almost 240 sq. miles), and destroyed 18,804 structures, with most of the damage occurring within the first four hours. [link to en.wikipedia.org (secure)] ^^ You all had to see the correlation between Eden and Paradise. [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] During that weekend, while my power was out and the fires were raging, my ex boyfriend texted me to tell me he was Satan. when he found out I tried to kill myself, he said the day I did it he felt it and was picking the skin off his hands. he felt a huge plume of darkness encroaching on him and surrounding him. What to make of it all? Last Edited by Light of my Little Left Eye on 08/12/2019 09:46 PM |
| Light of my Little Left Eye
(OP) User ID: 75822891 United States08/12/2019 09:47 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | She was my friend. Until she was taken from me. Quoting: Seer777 That's how I see it. And I was made to feel responsible. And all these years later..here it is again. She's not weak. She's struggling. Like a lot of people. I am still your friend... I don't know that it's currently mutual. Of course it is. I don't know what to believe..but I believe in you. I believe in aether too, because I know he is real. There are a bunch of us..how I see it. I miss you. I don't know why connecting is like gasoline and matches. [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] I miss you too. It's my off and on connection to this site. It never, ever goes away though. Not ever.... |
| Ricky M
User ID: 71504938 United States08/12/2019 09:47 PM  Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | There is a force that wants me dead. Quoting: Light of my Little Left Eye and one that must want me alive, because somehow I survived <3 [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] The glories of our blood and state, are shadows, not substantial things; There is no armour against fate, death lays his icy hand on kings. Scepter and crown must tumble down, and, in the dust, be equal made with the poor crooked scythe and spade. James Shirley |
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| WhyKnot
User ID: 72341210 United States08/12/2019 09:53 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Something malevolent is going on. It's apparent at my end while I was typing this post five times. The OP is under demonic oppression as I had clear evidence of it here. Quoting: WhyKnot Say this prayer. Demonic oppression? ...could be Say the prayer sincerely. If it's demonic oppresion, you will experience a violent outburst. 19 And this is the condemnation, that light is come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. 20 For every one that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should reproved. 21 But he that doeth truth cometh to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in God. John 3:19-21 |
| Seer777
User ID: 77851584 United States08/12/2019 09:55 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | What IS..collateral damage? [link to www.youtube.com (secure)]  Difficulties strengthen the Mind as labor does the body... ~Seneca |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 65622859 United States08/12/2019 09:57 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I took a bunch of psych meds, one combination which in the quantity I took it had a 90% chance of putting me in cardiac arrest. I was in the icu for 36 hours. Why did I do it? Quoting: Light of my Little Left Eye The week I spent afterwards in the psych ward was pretty much like going to purgatory after you die. Hell that place is purgatory. Ask me anything I'm glad you made it! Thanks for sharing this because of a similar event in my own life between 06/10 and 07/19. It all makes more sense now b/c we are all connected. <3 |
| Light of my Little Left Eye
(OP) User ID: 75822891 United States08/12/2019 09:57 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | There is a force that wants me dead. Quoting: Light of my Little Left Eye and one that must want me alive, because somehow I survived <3 [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] Hey Ricky, I'm glad to hear you're alive, it's been so long. When's the last time the three of us have been together? |
| Light of my Little Left Eye
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| Light of my Little Left Eye
(OP) User ID: 75822891 United States08/12/2019 10:01 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | No idea why you are on here after something traumatic like that so, you have to deal with some of the nasty people on here.... Quoting: Waterglass Feel better. Neither does she. That's why she is so fucked up! ...Can't say y'all are wrong. If my attempt had succeeded, perhaps it would be a case of collatoral damage indeed. |
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| Light of my Little Left Eye
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| Anonymous Coward User ID: 69213806 United States08/12/2019 10:02 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I think they usually release them with arrangements for therapy. They usually wont let you go if they feel you will still be a danger to yourself, you have to convince them you are sane. This is how I believe it works. I had a friend 10 years back who attempted suicide and this is basically what she told me. It is very easy to lie to get out. I wasn't lying though. Suicide was a crappy idea that God didn't let me go through with. Still, as I mentioned before: desperation. I hear you.. Did they put you in touch with some good therapists in your area? If so, please do go, dont be tempted to skip, because it really will do you a world of good. And please, in the future, no matter how bad it gets, never ever contemplate suicide ever again. Its a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I promise there is light at the end of the tunne, you just have to believe that.. and FIGHT!  Christ, no one heard a fucking thing all those people warned her about. Why am I not surprised? |
| Light of my Little Left Eye
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| Light of my Little Left Eye
(OP) User ID: 75822891 United States08/12/2019 10:04 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | ... Quoting: Love_Goddess I think they usually release them with arrangements for therapy. They usually wont let you go if they feel you will still be a danger to yourself, you have to convince them you are sane. This is how I believe it works. I had a friend 10 years back who attempted suicide and this is basically what she told me. It is very easy to lie to get out. I wasn't lying though. Suicide was a crappy idea that God didn't let me go through with. Still, as I mentioned before: desperation. I hear you.. Did they put you in touch with some good therapists in your area? If so, please do go, dont be tempted to skip, because it really will do you a world of good. And please, in the future, no matter how bad it gets, never ever contemplate suicide ever again. Its a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I promise there is light at the end of the tunne, you just have to believe that.. and FIGHT! Christ, no one heard a fucking thing all those people warned her about. Why am I not surprised? To answer your question LG, I am probably going to go to a day program or residential in the next week or two. |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 76984449 United States08/12/2019 10:05 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | sorry to hear that op. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 74993099 the thing with depression and suicidal thoughts they never last, just wait it out knowing it will get better. be thankful you went in for only 1 week, had that appened to me they would keep me in a year. i know psych meds make you feel bad, i can relate, i have schizophrenia. best of luck in the future Nothing ever lasts. Extreme happiness nor extreme sadness. Just wait and things will change. Best to just be in the middle. Like water off a ducks back. That is how we should handle most things. Everything passes. |
| xenophon
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| Anonymous Coward User ID: 76984449 United States08/12/2019 10:08 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I took a bunch of psych meds, one combination which in the quantity I took it had a 90% chance of putting me in cardiac arrest. I was in the icu for 36 hours. Why did I do it? Quoting: Light of my Little Left Eye The week I spent afterwards in the psych ward was pretty much like going to purgatory after you die. Hell that place is purgatory. Ask me anything OP.. There was a time when I once dealt with suicide.... In May/June of 2017.... I had totally concluded that I was going to kill myself, and I concluded that that was the only option I had... And I had been feeling extremely suicidal on and off for a year and a half before that.... And it was during a few weeks in May/June of 2017 that I had come to the point a which I thought that my only option was to kill myself, and that I was ust going to wait until the right time.... And low and behold..... during that very small time period of only a few weeks of thinking that my only option left was to kill myself.... my life completely and totally changed.... Freeing me from ALL desires to kill myself. God had intervened. And I am INFINITELY grateful that I did not kill myself.... because less than a year later I found my twin flame (my other half, female.. :) ).... and life means more to me now than it has ever... SO DON'T KILL YOURSELF. DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT. !! BAD THINGS CAN'T LAST FOREVER... AND THEY WON'T. GOOD THINGS AWAIT FOR YOU OP. You just have to stick it out. <3 Here is the thread I wrote about my experience I detailed before about me concluding I was going to kill myself in May/June of 2017.... and then literally EVERYTHING changing for the better within that same short time period that I concluded that - Thread: Life is kind of strange It will get better OP, I promise!!!!!!!!!!!! You JUST have to stick it out! <3 God is aware of what is going on :) <3 He won't let you down <3 I'm not sure I believe you. Bad can last forever. I've been in pain 24/7, even dream in pain for 15 years now. Been to every doctor imaginable and lost my life savings over seeking an answer. Only pain and suffering awaits me every second of every day until I die and rest at last. How did the pain start? |
