I recently attempted suicide and had to spend a week in the psych unit

I'm not so sure of that.

Are you the one who does Xanax

Do you want to know a secret "Light of my Little Left Eye"?

I was here with you a long time ago and you were one of my favorite posters! I loved your big, good heart.

You may remember me as Fibonacci.

What got a hold of you kid and fucked you up so badly?

Please, please please.

Leave this place and never talk to these people again.

I really care about you!

He sounds ill and or possessed. Stay away from him.

Already know... boring as sh*t. There is always a nurse Rackett like the "One that Flew Over the COO COO's Nest." The staff treats you like you are 6 years old again. Can't lock any restroom doors, can't go outside alone in the courtyard. The smokers are in hell because they can't smoke. You can't stay up to watch TV with even the limited programming offered. Can't have an evening snack beside a few crackers. Can't use the phone for more than 10 minutes at a scheduled time. The food is bland. And the staff keeps getting you up early in the morning and sending you off to classes throughout the day that are just stupid when you rather be sleeping. So then you spend your time working on puzzles, trying to avoid the people that don't want to take a shower because they smell so bad.

The only excitement is watching people who think they are Jesus, v the people that think they are Satan. Yes, a week of that is enough to prevent you from wanting to commit suicide. Life after that is far worse for a long time. Plus your family is constantly asking you if you took your meds today and whispering behind your back.

Yah... overdose...don't do it. Mental hospitals are worthless facilities that are a huge waste of your time and expense.

You are much better off, keeping a regular daily schedule, working out, eating right, and getting enough rest every day. Quite the crappy job two and dump the jerk that is messing with your heart too. Life is too short to be unhappy.

So true. Get out and walk in nature also.

I know what experimenting has cost me.
But chaos is in my name. It is me.

People that are able to self-maintain in this slave world, don't need help nor treatment.

That's the entire point.


Keep telling people that are struggling, that they just need to figure it out on their own through diet and activity.

That's the super magical answer to everything.

Especially how this false sucking hole of a slave reality is somewhat appealing to death.

Don't fault those, who don't self-breed into your future slave colony.


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This is pretty much right on, except in my place during snacktime (3x a day) you can have unlimited quantities of goodies brought in by loved ones

I may be sick and used, but I'm far from weak.
That's the whole problem.
My power is chaos itself...

That's not the word that I would use.

Do you remember me?

If you weren't weak, you wouldnt have fallen for this shit.

I for one dont feel bad for you..

I feel bad for her whole generation!

Probably.
What word would you use?

Ok Attention Whore

All this just to get some attention and feel special?

I know your kind..

People with real problems dont rub it into everyones face.

FACT.

Afraid.

I have been in deep pain for a long time.

I'm not rubbing it in anyone's face, I'm letting my friends know what happened to me. Or rather what nearly did. I'd rather they know and there isn't a way we directly contact each other anymore. This was the most suitable. Since those who know me will see the message and those who don't know me won't care.

That's true. I wonder what the world would look like to me without fear in it.

Do you?

Do you know what it has cost those that watched and were directly involved?

Shit happens.

You think you're the only one? You think it makes you special?

And then you come here of all places to feel better, here where your tumbling down started?

The difference between night and day?

The difference between winter and summer?

Fear is the most POWERFUL, CONTROLLING and WEAKENING force in our world.

Fear is at the base of all DARKNESS. Fear is our worst and only enemy.

Now, how do you get rid of it?

Ask me...

There is apossibility to send PMs you know.

You obviously are rubbing it to everyones face.

And just a sec ago you did agree with AC that you have no friends here..

Did you read my Caelus thread?
I didn't know I was naming myself after Caelus, which is Uranus, pure chaos. I didn't know the gematria would be 666 on that name. I had no idea of any of this.
Somehow I ... "created it". It's my very nature, it's like breathing. I don't mean to do it Seer. I just do it.