Is it just me....or is life utterly pointless and stupid?

I remember as a kid wanting toys. Seemed like everything revolved around getting GI Joe's so I could spend hours in my imagination creating stories and fighting battles with them.

School never made any sense. Was a bright kid, really high aptitude, I could do the work. But it got old and boring quickly.

As an adult, I looked around for a meaningful career and just found myself bored and apathetic to whatever I did after awhile. I chased women in my 20's and did the "get laid" thing. It got old.

Now at 40, I find myself doing the same things over and over. Get up, work, try to find something to do. Seen thousands of movies, read thousands of books. Dated beautiful women. Not rich, but have wealthy friends, and they all are searching for anything to give their life meaning and purpose. A few of them have everything a person could ever want. They go out and cheat on their wives and are miserable inside at the complete lack of meaning.

I drove through a graveyard today and looked around at all the stones, all the dead...they all thought their lives were so important and meaningful, they all ended up in the same place.

I get up. I work. I clean the house. I do the dishes. I watch a movie. I eat what I want. I do it all again. And again. And again. It feels totally pointless and meaningless.

I do believe in God. I have talked with people about my faith. But nothing ever breaks the monotony.

Does anyone just feel absolutely astonished at the pointlessness of it all?

Absolutely YES. I'm a 52 year old still very attractive female. Haven't dated in years. The qqpleasure I get is in helping amimals I rescue ...cuz humans sure don't appreciate shit. I live away from society on 55 acres. My garden gives me happiness too...we were never meant to work eight hours a day and collect meaningless items just to say we have them...we were meant to interact with nature and live a wholesome life close to plants and animals and mother nature. I think maybe this is why so many are burned out now but I'm not positive. I enjoy the simple things like watching butterflies and growing food, flowers and herbs. Even so , I still wonder what the point of it all is.

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Once nihilism sets in, the only thing left to do is embrace the absurdity.

Thanks for that deep laugh.

I'm looking for the song ca. 1984,
either "Apathy" or "Apathy's (got a hold on me)".

Yeah, will post, if I find it.

Care so much you effin burn out is a decent goal.

It's not just you.

Life is a school.

And the thing about schools is...the HIGH IQ students see through the crap..and get bored REAL easy.

Im with you on that.

Im bored too and life is pointless vanity for the most part.

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It's just you...we make what we can of this place and the time we have here. I'm 58, playing music out again after a 25+ year hiatus and loving it. I've made millions...and lived in my car in the last ten years. I know I will have to work every day until I die to keep a roof over my head...that's ok too...keeps me sharp.

I keep smiling and knowing this is a short trip and I am the one who decides how it goes at the end of the day.

One verse in the Emerald Tablets admonishes:

The wise man lets his Heart overun, yet sayeth nothing.

It's not just you.

I feel the opposite - everything matters.

I remember as a kid wanting toys. Seemed like everything revolved around getting GI Joe's so I could spend hours in my imagination creating stories and fighting battles with them.

School never made any sense. Was a bright kid, really high aptitude, I could do the work. But it got old and boring quickly.

As an adult, I looked around for a meaningful career and just found myself bored and apathetic to whatever I did after awhile. I chased women in my 20's and did the "get laid" thing. It got old.

Now at 40, I find myself doing the same things over and over. Get up, work, try to find something to do. Seen thousands of movies, read thousands of books. Dated beautiful women. Not rich, but have wealthy friends, and they all are searching for anything to give their life meaning and purpose. A few of them have everything a person could ever want. They go out and cheat on their wives and are miserable inside at the complete lack of meaning.

I drove through a graveyard today and looked around at all the stones, all the dead...they all thought their lives were so important and meaningful, they all ended up in the same place.

I get up. I work. I clean the house. I do the dishes. I watch a movie. I eat what I want. I do it all again. And again. And again. It feels totally pointless and meaningless.

I do believe in God. I have talked with people about my faith. But nothing ever breaks the monotony.

Does anyone just feel absolutely astonished at the pointlessness of it all?

LIFE IS ALSO SO TRAGIC....VERY TRAGIC THE MORE YOU THINK OF IT.