Help me figure out a personal conspiracy?

Definitely buy those shares...and then buy me a coffee.

Meh. I'm just sitting here like an idiot trying to have a glimmer of hope that it was one person acting out of line rather than company policy.

And I still want to know what to tell my eye doctor before some tumor re-emerges in the middle of my freaking eyeball.

God knows.

The chemo definitely triggered cancer.

I admire your wishful thinking; although I think it's crazy because children are a common control method for parents among psychopaths.

But you know what cognitive dissonance and you're contemplating that you may suffer from it which is a good sign of healing.

Good luck Ms TlvmmCpoft! :)

First I need to buy shares in IBM, Boeing and then Pfizer.

Ima gonna be Richie Rich!

Let me have my wishful thinking.

I can fight back against a single psychopath. But governments full of them?

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Sorry Ms TlvmmCpoft, you're right!

The lady who adopted you was a rogue agent looking for fame and fortune amongst the medical community. She worked alone to torment young children and lab animals with heinous diseases. :)

Hey, you never know.

I believe it with all my heart Ms TlvmmCpoft. I've accepted it as a self evident truth.

That is some scary reading right there... she should be in prison.

To be honest, I think it was partially true.

She lied to everyone: me, the public in general, her bosses.

That's just a psychopath thing to do. They don't have loyalties.

I don't think everything she did was government approved. I know it wasn't family approved (going based on how she hid me from her own family).

As for how much what she did in life that was government approved, though... that's a mountain to dive into another day.

Agreed.

You've lived an interesting life Ms TlvmmCpoft. At the end of your life in front of your maker you'll be able to say, "At least I wasn't bored!" :)

Pft. An interesting life is great if you willingly sign up for it at 18 like an idiot. It's a bit shit when you grow up in it.

I'm so sorry Ms TlvmmCpoft.

What years did this happen?
Is she still alive?

I was poisoned and see some similarities.
When the poison is ingested there are red marks inside the stomach that look like cancer in an endoscopy. Also swelling of the esophagus which causes difficulty swallowing. Then diarrhea for 6 months.

People shoot opiates and smoke or snort meth out of boredom...

:thisisglp:

At least we don't need to worry about you haunting truck stops because you need money just because you're bored.

I don't want to share my life story because there's too much I don't know about it, but I've lived an interesting life too and I wouldn't have it any other way.

Being in Hell is a lot like a lot of time to think and not enough going on to distract you from your thoughts.

The first radiation was around 1981.

The bitch won't die but she's definitely into her retirement years. Not that retirement means anything. She currently has a teenager living with her who developed cancer while staying with her. It killed me a little inside to find that out. He's now physically worn out like I was. She's also profited on it (major cash donations from a concerned community).

I had difficulty swallowing pretty much my whole life, but it turns out I was allergic to a really common ingredient, so I don't know if I can blame her for that one. I've been happily not choking on every meal for a little over a year now after removing it from my diet.

I hope you've recovered from the poisoning. There are still times I have shit days, but they're fairly rare. Still, they spook me. Like, oh lord please not this again.

Not all Machiavellians are psychopaths, I don’t think. I was given the MACHV, not knowing what it was, and, answering honestly, I scored a 96.

I thought everyone thought that way.

What keeps me in check is my belief in Christ. I know that He declares certain actions wrong, and that’s the final word.

I don’t believe you are saying this, as you qualify a subset of psychopaths as Machiavellian — just wanted to get my story into the ether as food for thought.

I'm a Machiavellian, Narcissistic Psychopath and thanks to normalcy bias I think everyone's just like me. And put not so bluntly, that does scare me more than just a little.

I just did the MACHIV and scored 99/100! Almost perfect like always. :D

I got a 70. Mostly, because I perceive the world negatively (I don't believe most people are honest, etc).

I think the survey is flawed, though. Just because I think people are self-serving doesn't mean I would want to take advantage of it. I'm more likely to walk away in frustration than anything.

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I am so sorry and pray you find peace.

Sorry I mentioned München ....

I was looking for an aid to rescue the little boy .

In a way it does not matter if you had the cancer before she started playing games with your body ......tell the doctors what happened .They May be able to tell what happened .

Hope you writing this has helped you to heal and turned the horror into a story .

Sometimes things being a story stops the emotional pain .

Strangely I was wondering today if women could be psychopaths ......you have given me the answer ......seems they can .

May you have the peace that passes all understanding ....given by the Good God .

So, again, the question that has plagued me. Did I have cancer before all of the treatment?

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When you received a radiation treatment to your head...did they shield you with a lead apron from your neck to your crotch?

If not...I would suspect it was "off the record" and I would also suspect you did not have cancer.

I genuinely can't remember if there was a vest. I wore too many of those things as a kid, I'm assuming for xrays mostly.

The whole leading principal of Machiavelli's "The Prince" was people are not to be trusted and everything done in the name of money and power is justifiable. This is so by the peace the peasantry enjoys through stable and profitable governance.

Weak people should enjoy their comfy lives of peaceful, calm boredom. Where their biggest issue is one of little to no consequence, in fact the smaller the consequence the happier they usually are. :o

Politics is a lot like warfare in that both rely on deception.

Having a jaded point of view of the honesty of most self serving people doesn't make someone a bad person, it just means they're a realist. Which is something everyone should be, but most people would rather other scary people protect them from the ills of the world. Lest their fragile sense of self or things they care for become undone.

Everyone has a place on Earth and we all fill our roles to the best of our ability with the gifts granted to us.

Having that conversation with a doctor is difficult. "By the way, I was raised by a crazy lady who used the medical field as a form of child abuse and profit."

I'm always looking for a simpler less emotionally wrecked way of giving them a medical history. Knowing what the actual cancer was, and if I had one, would be nice. Unfortunately, it's probably not something I'll ever get a straight answer on to give to the doctors.

Although, the first time I told an eye doctor that I'd had surgery and radiation was the first time I actually received treatment that improved my vision, I'd assume because they actually knew what they were dealing with instead of being given a false medical history. I waited until I was nearly 40 to get up the nerve to have that conversation.

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Anything's possible with that one.


quote: TlvmmCpoft: She did claim to be doing research in a similar kind of manner. I do wonder sometimes if I was just a free range lab rat. but I tend to lean towards all this crap being her at-home side project.


You claim to have been illegally adopted from a warzone by a psychopath and remember feeling sick and actually getting cancer from cancer treatments done by an associate of said psychopath.



Did this monster expose you to any other forms of torment?

Can you file suit for wrongful adoption, pain and suffering and mental abuse? If so the disclosure portion of the trial would force the release of many of the records that you require to determine the truth of any of it.

OP, your story breaks my heart, I have no doubt that things like this actually occur, but we are on the NET and anyone can make any claim and it will basically go unchallenged.

If you really suffered as you said, my heart breaks for you. Good luck in your future and don't let this madness DEFINE who and what you become in life.

To spite your tormentor you must find love, and have lots of children that you love and adore, send her pictures, but NEVER allow her near you or your LOVED ONES.

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I know you're not going to like this answer OP...but IMHO I think it would be your best move to forgive (DON'T forget)...and move past this.

To forgive them will give YOU peace...do it!

To forget will give THEM peace...DON'T do it!

My $0.02

Yeah, but what if there are leftover cancer cells multiplying as we speak and no one knows which ones or where to look at to find them?

Meh. I just want my medical history so I can continue to live and have a medical history.

Doesn't matter.

Don't give in to the drama.

Take the cards you have and get the best hand you can manage.

Spit on the past, hold your head up, and walk on.

If there is no record, no. If one doctor has it could be a manipulation on her part. If multiple doctors/hospitals have you with cancer and some record of testing you did. In the absence of this, no just a sick twisted family member

She sold me into a lot of things, not just medical. It was pretty much anything that a profit could be made on.

I used to try to make sense of it and couldn't until I realized the only commonality it all had was profit in her pocket.

As for the adoption, I'm working on fighting it, but it was international and a giant nightmare, so I'm not just dealing with one obstinate country - I'm dealing with two. By the time it gets sorted out, it'll be my great grandchildren receiving the results.