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leave behind the people that hurt you yesterday, for the people that will help you with tommorrow..

merry christmas, i will be here tomorrow if you want to talk..... same for everyone...

I can't believe I am saying this but I find it all just a bit much any more. Getting very old I guess. All grand kids grown and have family's now married so their time is divided with their inlaws and their own familys. That happens about the same time all my siblings are gone many of my best friends gone, its not a joyful time in life these senior years. Christmas is a time now to reflect and ride it out this too will pass.

This is what I did, and volunteered at the Homeless shelter Christmas day to help as well... :)

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I miss my little girl. I've hated the entire Thanksgiving/Christmas/New Year season since I lost her in 1999. She was 5 years old. Fuck peace on earth and goodwill towards men.

I miss my little girl. I've hated the entire Thanksgiving/Christmas/New Year season since I lost her in 1999. She was 5 years old. Fuck peace on earth and goodwill towards men.

I kind of had an epiphany the last couple of weeks. I did that whole volunteering thing for Thanksgiving. I took some families I knew who were struggling out to get groceries. It made me feel good about myself and being a decent person. However, for Christmas, I am now on the receiving end of being made to feel like people are doing me a good deed, and it made me think that in some respects, this holiday generosity is more for the person doing it than the person on the receiving end. Having to accept "gifts" from people can really make you feel like shit.

I miss my little girl. I've hated the entire Thanksgiving/Christmas/New Year season since I lost her in 1999. She was 5 years old. Fuck peace on earth and goodwill towards men.

FUCK CHRISTMAS.

FUCK IT ALL THE WAY TO NEXT CHRISTMAS...AND FUCK NEXT CHRISTMAS TOO.

THIS WORLD IS A BLITHERING SHITHOLE OF DOOM AND DEATH AND BETRAYAL.

ITS ALL FUCKING BULLSHIT.

THIS LIFE AND EVERYTHING IN IT IS FUCKING BULLSHIT.

NO ONE GIVES A FUCK ABOUT ANYONE AND THOSE THAT DO ONLY DO SO CAUSE THEY FEEL OBLIGED TO.

FUCK ALL FAKE PEOPLE.

FUCK CHURCHES AND THEIR ENDLESS FUCKING GREED.

FUCK GOVTS AND THEIR ENDLESS FUCKING GREED.

FUCK CORPORATIONS AND THEIR ENDLESS FUCKING GREED.

FUCK THIS SHIT FUCKHOLE PLANET TO THE DEPTHS OF THE DEEPEST PIT OF SHIT IN THE UNIVERSE.

ITS JUST A GIANT FUCKING TURD AND US HUMANS ARE THE BUMGRUBS THAT INFEST IT LIKE THE GIANT CURRY SHIT IT IS.

There...i feel better now.

End rant.

This is what I did, and volunteered at the Homeless shelter Christmas day to help as well... :)

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So much pressure to socialize. It's unnatural and uncomfortable. Like the purgatory of having to deal with robocallers who invade my serenity. I prefer hibernation.

I used to love Christmas. But as the years went by without being able to have children and my birth family died off, I find each year sadder. I have a spouse,who also sadly has no extended family. An injury cost me my job a few yrs ago and the loss of income has put us at the poverty line. We have each exchanged $100 and then put it back into bills the last few yrs. My spouse does not seem to care, but I cry more every year....

This is what I did, and volunteered at the Homeless shelter Christmas day to help as well... :)

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It is a crazy time...

The best I've ever heard was it is "Just another day", and including "Just another week if you count New Year".. Silly season if you will...

It still doesn't help that for some people? everywhere you look is all this hype and fake happiness...

Truth is, MOST people find it miserable, tedious and expensive, but keep up the Charade for friends, family and children....

Don't be lonely or sad, just let it all out here :)

Been with a girl for just over a year. Our anniversary was on the 4th. Her birthday was about one month before, on 11-10. I bought her a few things- a giant stuffed dinosaur, a bottle of single malt scotch, and a set of whisky rocks. She likes that stuff.

We met in paramedic school. We didn't talk much. Nearing the end of the first semester, my other partner failed out. I always thought she was cute so I decided to go for it. We studied together every single day for months. We bonded. We became boyfriend and girlfriend.

We traveled, we went on adventures. I really, really thought she was the one. About a week ago, she said the pressure of our relationship was making her unhappy. She asked for a week off. I agured at first, but I came to the conclusion that there was no talking her out of it. So, I begrudgingly agreed to the week off. I KNEW that she was going to break up with me.

One week later, she did.

We both passed our national registry exam months ago in September. She waited to apply to jobs for a while for me. I had to wait because I'm worried about failing a urine analysis. She waited for about two months. I still couldn't pass. She applied and got the job. Im still unemployed.

She moved on. Here I am a few days before Christmas. Totally alone. No family. No job. I guess no one to blame but myself,

Im 38 years old. I've never been married and I have no children. In my 20s I suffered from depression so severe that I lost nearly a decade of my life. For the first time in over a decade I had that gut feeling of panic and hopelessness I haven't felt since. That was yesterday.

I know you don't know me but my name is Michael. If anyone is reading this, please, please pray for me because I feel so bad and there's no one around to help me. Please, just wish me happy thoughts.

I need them now more than ever.

Think that's bad, try having a birfday on the first of January. Everyone in the world is celebrating... but you. Hahaha! Enjoy!

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