hang in there OP - it gets better as you get older

D3 helps me a lot - gritting my teeth and waiting it out did me well for over 40 yrs - like I said it mellows with age

sucks that all the docs push the SSRIs but they only work on 50% of us with depression and they have no idea what else to do ...

I've dealt with this for over 40 yrs - it kinda gets better and/or you learn and get used to it and how it runs