I have the "luxury" of being a senior, RR, kids are grown and on their own and doing well.

I suspect that we get older there's an increase in calm just based on what gets learned from all the earlier mistakes.

You're not alone in feeling overwhelmed at times, you've read the posts from others here from time to time. It's just your turn to express it and get some support.

It wouldn't be so stressful if you didn't care so much, and that's what being a high character person looks like.