Hello OP
I may have corresponded with you elsewhere. I want you to know that you are not alone. I followed this disease from before it was in the media and public consciousness, watched the news leaking and structured my live over six months leading up to February 2020 and was finally able to withdraw April 2020. I am dreading what the next six months will bring but I have a high predictive ability that I have 'Put my money where my mind was' whether during the 90s tech boom, crypto, stocks, geopolitics and I have always had the ability to tell whether someone will die soon and have never been wrong. I am a Catholic (please do not attack me, I am not evangelising) and have always attributed this as a gift of the Holy Spirit. More will die monthly in December, January and February monthly than have died in total so far. There will be hunger and a storage of food next year in many countries and for the first time in many decades starvation for the poorest in rich western nations. All the riots we see are the same cause, a primordial reaction, it is not yellow vests, or blm, or anti mask etc, it is all the same hysteria. How to ants know when to grow wings or lemmings to hurl themselves from cliffs? I understand this will continue until next June. I also believe that there is a deliberate act in that life saving treatments have been withheld, or is it just idiocracy. As to the ability to see the future, before ethe Japanese tsunami, I had waking visions of bodies in water on the waves washing ashore and made the mistake of telling people, who at the time treated me as crazy and a few weeks later treated me as someone they were scared of, especially the person I confided in that I knew when individuals would die. There are many rational non spiritual and non supernatural explanation for why we can 'feel' the future. I just wonder why we are as no one ever listens. God Bless you all and stay safe, make sure you have six months food and water, and a secure place to be along with any medicines you need and DO NOT -DO NOT believe for one moment this is a hoax or a fake disease. I have my own understanding of why this is happening but there is hope. If you can make it to June, you will be through the worst. Sadly many many people are going to die.