i know i have erred greatly and disappointed God, I got so lost in your beautiful wonderous creation, i am a fool it is so vast and incomprehensible, i walk into a river in a daze in wide eyed wonder at the beauty, please forgive me my mistakes, don't let me suffer and die, i want to live that i ight worship you and glorify you and you might find something worthwhile and cool in me , you might delight in my social graces and helping your own children to know and appreciate you, and how to play with you and interact with you, and ultimately, one day, to give you grand creations, grandchildren which is your ultimate delight of all things, and great grand creations, and so on forever, i can foresee how unpredictable this is for you, your incredible delight and amusement.

although that is up to us, to make it incredible and awesome for you, and you deserve this, we owe this to you, for all you have done for us, our heavenly father and mother, this wonderful world and everyone in it. this gift of incredible life you gave us