I've been looking for something big to turn everything upside down for several years.... but figured we had until November and maybe could have one last, fun summer.

My life is not the same.

Already cancelled two fun trips - one with the grandkids and one with my sister.

Still hoping to make the yearly beach vacation this summer with all the kids and grandkids. fingers crossed.

Haven't seen my kids or grandkids in about 2 weeks and I hate it.