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Anonymous Coward User ID: 78881807 United States 05/25/2020 08:01 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Op I have a son who feels as you do Quoting: Anonymous Coward 67414589 please don't give up he tells me he is a piece of shit and just wants to die hard to know what to say to that but I sure do not understand it we are all special, you and my son as well lost and walking in the dark you are find your way out you can do it, I know you can please fight It's a real feeling. Like a voice in the back of your head, whos opinion you care about for some reason, keeps telling you you're no good and not worth anyone's trouble. It can lead to bad choices..at least that was my experience. yes I know but now please hear my voice. doesn't matter what you've done, you are loved that other voice wants you to kill yourself because you are a child of the MOST HIGH and the voice is jealous of you because you are precious to HIM I do not say this lightly but after many years of searching, I believe it with all my heart hang in there and listen for the voice that loves you |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 63928440 United States 05/25/2020 08:02 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Idiot alert ... Quoting: Anonymous Coward 78488111 I know. I made a bunch of dumb choices that permanently altered my life forever that have made my existence completely meaningless. I sort of already did self destruct. I am already dead in almost all ways accept my pulse and the painful awareness of all I lost. Its all gone. Its not coming back and I cant cope. Ladd, stop fucking around or I will just resurrect you. Not this time. Help will be miles away. I'll be lost we within one of the thickest swampland found in North America. Not that anyones going to look for a peice of shit like me. I will, because I love you, and I'm not done torturing you yet. |
cosmicgypsy
User ID: 74619032 United States 05/25/2020 08:28 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Thanks to all. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 78488111 I guess I have some more choices I need to make. Idk. Thank you for yo u r time Hang on... I've asked a friend to join the thread. She should be along shortly. Aye..fine with me And that would be me.... Listen, you need to get your behind into a rehab, for at least six months. And don't balk at six months, it'll probably take a year. It's the only thing you have control over right now....your future. You WILL call a doctor to help, go to the ER....do anything to get your butt into a rehab, this week. I hate to say it, but I don't think you're going to make it, otherwise. So, tell me, straight up honestly....do you really want to die? Heh, think about it hard. You're alive now. You can make a choice yet. My heart to yours.... And if you're trollin', I'm going to drop an energy bomb on your head. Promise. You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 78488111 United States 05/25/2020 08:32 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Op I have a son who feels as you do Quoting: Anonymous Coward 67414589 please don't give up he tells me he is a piece of shit and just wants to die hard to know what to say to that but I sure do not understand it we are all special, you and my son as well lost and walking in the dark you are find your way out you can do it, I know you can please fight It's a real feeling. Like a voice in the back of your head, whos opinion you care about for some reason, keeps telling you you're no good and not worth anyone's trouble. It can lead to bad choices..at least that was my experience. yes I know but now please hear my voice. doesn't matter what you've done, you are loved that other voice wants you to kill yourself because you are a child of the MOST HIGH and the voice is jealous of you because you are precious to HIM I do not say this lightly but after many years of searching, I believe it with all my heart hang in there and listen for the voice that loves you Thank you..I am trying |
Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 78488111 United States 05/25/2020 08:39 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Thanks to all. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 78488111 I guess I have some more choices I need to make. Idk. Thank you for yo u r time Hang on... I've asked a friend to join the thread. She should be along shortly. Aye..fine with me And that would be me.... Listen, you need to get your behind into a rehab, for at least six months. And don't balk at six months, it'll probably take a year. It's the only thing you have control over right now....your future. You WILL call a doctor to help, go to the ER....do anything to get your butt into a rehab, this week. I hate to say it, but I don't think you're going to make it, otherwise. So, tell me, straight up honestly....do you really want to die? Heh, think about it hard. You're alive now. You can make a choice yet. My heart to yours.... And if you're trollin', I'm going to drop an energy bomb on your head. Promise. I have done 2 6 month programs a three month and have had years of sobriety. I got hurt real bad. You wouldn't believe me...perhaps I will talk about it another day. Anyways...im desperate. There are people after me..last time I went to rehab I was assaulted in my sleep and I don't know if ill ever be okay after what they did to me |
cosmicgypsy
User ID: 74619032 United States 05/25/2020 08:46 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | And that would be me.... Listen, you need to get your behind into a rehab, for at least six months. And don't balk at six months, it'll probably take a year. It's the only thing you have control over right now....your future. You WILL call a doctor to help, go to the ER....do anything to get your butt into a rehab, this week. I hate to say it, but I don't think you're going to make it, otherwise. So, tell me, straight up honestly....do you really want to die? Heh, think about it hard. You're alive now. You can make a choice yet. My heart to yours.... And if you're trollin', I'm going to drop an energy bomb on your head. Promise. I have done 2 6 month programs a three month and have had years of sobriety. I got hurt real bad. You wouldn't believe me...perhaps I will talk about it another day. Anyways...im desperate. There are people after me..last time I went to rehab I was assaulted in my sleep and I don't know if ill ever be okay after what they did to me Why so many problems in your life? Do you know why? Seriously, if you've done it before, you can do it again. Addicts sometimes fall off the wagon after years of sobriety. Do you know what your triggers are? And I'll tell ya: I was sexually assaulted in my sleep as a wee one. It's my first memory in life....heh, I got over it. It took work, but I did heal the pain. I'm here to tell you, even just about the worst CAN BE risen above. Lovey, you've just got to want to rise. I don't know how old you are. I don't know what your history is....but I do know that there is a part of you that would like to live, and to live well. Stop drowning that out with drugs and discontent. It's your saving grace. You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
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Lance Roseman From BC
User ID: 78389694 Canada 05/25/2020 08:49 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Just join our lost Monastery for hapless people. If you are not busy weaving your own magick, you are trapped in anothers spell. “It’s time you realized that you have something in you more powerful and miraculous than the things that affect you and make you dance like a puppet.” – Marcus Aurelius |
cosmicgypsy
User ID: 74619032 United States 05/25/2020 08:49 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Idk whatever happens happens. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 78488111 I've been clean for a couple weeks..too afraid to touch the stuff. It made me so sick too...I was throwing up blood and it hurt to eat solid food. That's a good start.... You need to get at the root of what is ailing you, lovey. You're not going to be good to go until you do. You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 77222658 United States 05/25/2020 08:52 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Op wow you are strong listen it sounds like you need grief therapy and some therapy for the trauma of your mental injury. Notice I didn’t say mental illness Just learned that recently watching a documentary I think it was called Cracked. Maybe try to get in the witness protection program and start clean? You have options op. |
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cosmicgypsy
User ID: 74619032 United States 05/25/2020 08:56 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I want to live so bad Quoting: Anonymous Coward 78488111 But I can't seem too I am trying so hard...idk Thank you You need to get someplace safe, where you have no access to drugs. You must clean up your consciousness clock, it's a critical mess. That's why you can only say, "idk." You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 77640440 United States 05/25/2020 08:58 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I want to live so bad Quoting: Anonymous Coward 78488111 But I can't seem too I am trying so hard...idk Thank you Do you know how to eat a whale? One bite at a time. You're in good company here. And you want to be better. That's over half the battle won right there. A journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step. Just one foot in front of the other. Over and over, and before you know it you've gotten somewhere! |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 78681983 Canada 05/25/2020 08:58 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Any way you look at it OP, there are still good people in this world and you can still turn it all around, even after all the stupid decisions and shitty things that happened to you. There are may others like you who came out for the better on the other side. Good luck, and I mean it. |
cosmicgypsy
User ID: 74619032 United States 05/25/2020 08:59 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Heh, I love-love Lance, but he's tipsy more than a little. I imagine you two would be a dangerous combo..... Love you, Lance....but you know I'm right. You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
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Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 78488111 United States 05/25/2020 09:02 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Any way you look at it OP, there are still good people in this world and you can still turn it all around, even after all the stupid decisions and shitty things that happened to you. There are may others like you who came out for the better on the other side. Good luck, and I mean it. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 78681983 Thank you |
Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 78488111 United States 05/25/2020 09:03 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I want to live so bad Quoting: Anonymous Coward 78488111 But I can't seem too I am trying so hard...idk Thank you Do you know how to eat a whale? One bite at a time. You're in good company here. And you want to be better. That's over half the battle won right there. A journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step. Just one foot in front of the other. Over and over, and before you know it you've gotten somewhere! True....very true. |
Lance Roseman From BC
User ID: 78389694 Canada 05/25/2020 09:06 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Heh, I love-love Lance, but he's tipsy more than a little. I imagine you two would be a dangerous combo..... Love you, Lance....but you know I'm right. Just because I'm tipsy doesn't negate my hapless monastery. It's functional at least. 4 beers in...Maybe I should drop some acid now? If you are not busy weaving your own magick, you are trapped in anothers spell. “It’s time you realized that you have something in you more powerful and miraculous than the things that affect you and make you dance like a puppet.” – Marcus Aurelius |
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cosmicgypsy
User ID: 74619032 United States 05/25/2020 09:11 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Heh, I love-love Lance, but he's tipsy more than a little. I imagine you two would be a dangerous combo..... Love you, Lance....but you know I'm right. Just because I'm tipsy doesn't negate my hapless monastery. It's functional at least. 4 beers in...Maybe I should drop some acid now? You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
cosmicgypsy
User ID: 74619032 United States 05/25/2020 09:13 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | But really, the OP needs to basically isolate himself, and really, really get to know himself. Easier said, than done. A necessity if one is to make it out alive, though. You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
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Lance Roseman From BC
User ID: 78389694 Canada 05/25/2020 09:26 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | But really, the OP needs to basically isolate himself, and really, really get to know himself. Quoting: cosmicgypsy Easier said, than done. A necessity if one is to make it out alive, though. Do any of us make it out alive? If you are not busy weaving your own magick, you are trapped in anothers spell. “It’s time you realized that you have something in you more powerful and miraculous than the things that affect you and make you dance like a puppet.” – Marcus Aurelius |