Mental breakdown imminent

Hey my friend I dont know what you're going through but I've been there at the bottom. And when I say the bottom I mean the BOTTOM. I was strung out, had warrants, jumping from house to house. A real shitty existence. All I can tell you is this too shall pass. You mentioned fentanyl, that's some bad shit. I became hooked on opiates after a work accident and lost everything to it including my freedom. But it boils down to two choices. You can either let it consume you until your dead in a ditch somewhere, or you can decide enough of this shit and change. Only you can do this. I've been there, I truly have. If anyone wouldve told me I'd have a house, a truck, a business, and 4 great kids 10 years ago when I was facing prison I would've laughed. Dont be a statistic, beat the statistics. Find God, find Buddah, whoever. Find something you love. I fell in love with weightlifting and conspiracy. I truly hope you are able to pull yourself up and dust yourself off. Get up get out and go get something my friend!!

::Sobbing intensifies::

Thats my dream...a house and a family.
I still have dreams...I thought that part of me died but maybe not..I just need to stay clean and I think I can make this work. F*** I have to try.

You know what, lovey? If you get yourself an acct., either embers or I will upgrade you. You'd then be able to PM us, if you needed someone to help you hang on, and we're on the board.

Think about it. You need some rock solid "friends" who aren't on drugs and who want to see you off them as much as you do, if not more....I used to be a substance abuse counselor, lovey, but I'm more adept at helping people get to the bottom of their issues....but only if they're willing to work twice as hard as I am. Ten times harder is more better for you.

I hope you can relax a bit and get some rest tonight. Sleep is very, very important.

You have my heart to yours....

Only if your a worthless idiot.........

THIS

Op, you need to survive and stay alive---to find out how it ends!
You are at the most important part of this life, the end is near.
All you have to do is pray and talk to your savior, Jesus Christ!

When you talk to Him, just tell Him how you feel.

Ask Him to help you clear your mind of bad evil thoughts.

You can't do this on your own, you already realize this.

Don't try anymore.

Give God the go ahead to make you feel again.

Feel this life and what it is to your body, mind and soul.

And remember, He died for you so that you may live in heaven

with Him and you too can be His people.

Ask people to pray for you! Talk to someone who cares and confess.
It helps immensely to get it 'off your chest' and will do you good.
Every day that you live---really live! Feel the grass beneath your feet.
Pet a cat or dog. Say 'hi' to people you don't know just to be friendly.
Think of how God the Father loves you! And always remember,
He didn't make all this crap we have to deal with---WE DID!

It's never God's fault we end up where we do when we don't know Him.
It's our responsibility to seek Him out. And don't be afraid!

Always remember this---His Love for us is Greater then our sin!!!

Always remember that. And yes, no one is perfect and we all make mistakes.
As long as we live, we will! But thank God we can confess our sins.
We can pray to the Father in the name of His Son and He will forgive us.

Now take one day at a time and pray when you wake up,
when you have difficulties, and thank Him at the end
of the day on your knee's and always be grateful for
everything. No matter if it's good or bad, it's all important.
You've heard this saying and it's true, whatever happens,
it's for a purpose. It may be to teach you something.

Good luck!!

God Bless and comfort you in this life...