what they want from me?

do they want me to become Christ?
so who is this Christ? i mean what is his real characteristic and his goals? and what he must do?

do they want me to become anti-Christ?
so who is this anti-Christ? i mean what is his real characteristic and his goals? and what he must do? and what is his real fate?

do they want me to kill myself?
do they want me to kill the human race?
do they want me to free and/or save the human race?
do they want me to rule the world?
do they just want me to forgive all the torturer they did, they do and they will do to me so they get away from the just punishment?

do they want me to blindly believe in what they blindly believe in? like that i am a mentally ill, weak, incel, ungrateful, stupid, sexual harasser, immoral, gay, woman, child, arrogant and loser?
and that their world is mostly good but i am the one that is mentally ill, weak, evil, unskilled and corrupt and this is why i am poor and dysfunctional?
and that their god is just and merciful but i am the one that refuse to be his masochistic slave and thank him for any shit he do to me until he is happy with me?
and that my sexual manhood/emotions is wrong
and that i must like my poverty because pleasure is unnecessarily??

why they keep repeat the same bullshit and psychological attacks?
why are they obsessed with hating me and being against me?
are they really Militant-feminist, extreme-capitalist and moderate-religious or they are like this only because they believe that i am conservative, socialist and irreligious and they just want to be the opposite of what i am?
who are they? why no one is really against them except me?
what is the thing that lead and puppeteer them? is it a spirit/daemon or matrix program/AI or universal force/god or hive-mind/Collective unconscious or wizard/magic law or what?
why no one expect, fear or care about any punishment and revenge i could be able to inflect upon them?