I understand your skepticism FS...I have felt the same at times. I don't understand it. I held on to life as a young girl, as a young adult, now as an adult. I have been through such hell, but that's the kicker right? We are still here, it's for a reason. Don't doubt that FS, whether it's to be a mother, father, wife, husband, or whatever, we both have things to offer this world. So that is something I hold onto. I had someone tell me once that I don't know how you have done it. I would have probably killed myself or ended up in an insane asylum, but it's strength of mind. You got to be strong, and you are FS, and there are others who also have it much worse than us. We also keep going for them, god sees this. For it is only us and those like us who can understand what they are going through and fight with our lives for them.