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cosmicgypsy
(OP) User ID: 74619032 United States09/25/2020 08:43 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | My heart does go out to those dealing with addiction, especially trying to recover....and especially when they're dual diagnosed with mental health issues. It has got to be fucking brutal....  I have a new methadone client. This person is one month on....such a tenuous time. The clinic rules are no alcohol, and my client knows this. They can't stop having a beer a night....although I suspect it's more. They got dropped for a UA, they panicked, and dipped the cup in the toilet water and gave that to them. They told me about this after - I'm their driver - because they knew I had been a substance abuse counselor in a methadone clinic. They wanted to know what was going to happen to them. Heh, after I reamed them a righteous new one for doing that, I told them they have cameras in the bathroom. I told them to never, ever do that again, that they would get dropped from the clinic in a heartbeat. Two days later?....the client did the same damn thing, but this time they were watching, and of course caught them. My client got very lucky, the doc let them dose, and they took another UA today....which they did the right way, they said. I cannot imagine the rat on the wheel in someone's head when they're deciding giving toilet water is going to save them from trouble....not once, but twice, and after being warned about the cameras and the full on stupidity of what they are doing....they f'n did it again. The only thing that speaks for this person is the addict in them....it's all they've got. Incredibly sad. And yes, I know we all know that smack is bad, the needle is dirty, pills make your life ugly...they deserve what they get, right?.....but still, it's a very hard hole for one to pull themselves out of. My new client is going to have a very hard time, I already know this, and it gets me sad-like....because a life totally destroyed. Too many lives destroyed. I fucking have to stop, least I get too bummed out...  Last Edited by cosmicgypsy on 09/25/2020 08:44 PM You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
| Malu nli
User ID: 77938206 United States09/25/2020 08:48 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | My heart does go out to those dealing with addiction, especially trying to recover....and especially when they're dual diagnosed with mental health issues. Quoting: cosmicgypsy It has got to be fucking brutal.... I have a new methadone client. This person is one month on....such a tenuous time. The clinic rules are no alcohol, and my client knows this. They can't stop having a beer a night....although I suspect it's more. They got dropped for a UA, they panicked, and dipped the cup in the toilet water and gave that to them. They told me about this after - I'm their driver - because they knew I had been a substance abuse counselor in a methadone clinic. They wanted to know what was going to happen to them. Heh, after I reamed them a righteous new one for doing that, I told them they have cameras in the bathroom. I told them to never, ever do that again, that they would get dropped from the clinic in a heartbeat. Two days later?....the client did the same damn thing, but this time they were watching, and of course caught them. My client got very lucky, the doc let them dose, and they took another UA today....which they did the right way, they said. I cannot imagine the rat on the wheel in someone's head when they're deciding giving toilet water is going to save them from trouble....not once, but twice, and after being warned about the cameras and the full on stupidity of what they are doing....they f'n did it again. The only thing that speaks for this person is the addict in them....it's all they've got. Incredibly sad. And yes, I know we all know that smack is bad, the needle is dirty, pills make your life ugly...they deserve what they get, right?.....but still, it's a very hard hole for one to pull themselves out of. My new client is going to have a very hard time, I already know this, and it gets me sad-like....because a life totally destroyed. Too many lives destroyed. I fucking have to stop, least I get too bummed out... I’m 13 years sober. Chronic end of life homeless alcoholic. I own my own business and run about 50 miles a week. Fit as f*cking Tarzan lol But i know what it is like to live with no hope it fucking sucks. But some of us make it out |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 77640440 United States09/25/2020 08:50 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | My heart does go out to those dealing with addiction, especially trying to recover....and especially when they're dual diagnosed with mental health issues. Quoting: cosmicgypsy It has got to be fucking brutal.... I have a new methadone client. This person is one month on....such a tenuous time. The clinic rules are no alcohol, and my client knows this. They can't stop having a beer a night....although I suspect it's more. They got dropped for a UA, they panicked, and dipped the cup in the toilet water and gave that to them. They told me about this after - I'm their driver - because they knew I had been a substance abuse counselor in a methadone clinic. They wanted to know what was going to happen to them. Heh, after I reamed them a righteous new one for doing that, I told them they have cameras in the bathroom. I told them to never, ever do that again, that they would get dropped from the clinic in a heartbeat. Two days later?....the client did the same damn thing, but this time they were watching, and of course caught them. My client got very lucky, the doc let them dose, and they took another UA today....which they did the right way, they said. I cannot imagine the rat on the wheel in someone's head when they're deciding giving toilet water is going to save them from trouble....not once, but twice, and after being warned about the cameras and the full on stupidity of what they are doing....they f'n did it again. The only thing that speaks for this person is the addict in them....it's all they've got. Incredibly sad. And yes, I know we all know that smack is bad, the needle is dirty, pills make your life ugly...they deserve what they get, right?.....but still, it's a very hard hole for one to pull themselves out of. My new client is going to have a very hard time, I already know this, and it gets me sad-like....because a life totally destroyed. Too many lives destroyed. I fucking have to stop, least I get too bummed out... You're an angel... one with wheels instead of wings. And your armor is that huge heart full of compassion for others...  |
| cosmicgypsy
(OP) User ID: 74619032 United States09/25/2020 08:55 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation |  [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
| beenthruthat
User ID: 78503183 United States09/25/2020 08:59 PM  Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | My heart does go out to those dealing with addiction, especially trying to recover....and especially when they're dual diagnosed with mental health issues. Quoting: cosmicgypsy It has got to be fucking brutal.... I have a new methadone client. This person is one month on....such a tenuous time. The clinic rules are no alcohol, and my client knows this. They can't stop having a beer a night....although I suspect it's more. They got dropped for a UA, they panicked, and dipped the cup in the toilet water and gave that to them. They told me about this after - I'm their driver - because they knew I had been a substance abuse counselor in a methadone clinic. They wanted to know what was going to happen to them. Heh, after I reamed them a righteous new one for doing that, I told them they have cameras in the bathroom. I told them to never, ever do that again, that they would get dropped from the clinic in a heartbeat. Two days later?....the client did the same damn thing, but this time they were watching, and of course caught them. My client got very lucky, the doc let them dose, and they took another UA today....which they did the right way, they said. I cannot imagine the rat on the wheel in someone's head when they're deciding giving toilet water is going to save them from trouble....not once, but twice, and after being warned about the cameras and the full on stupidity of what they are doing....they f'n did it again. The only thing that speaks for this person is the addict in them....it's all they've got. Incredibly sad. And yes, I know we all know that smack is bad, the needle is dirty, pills make your life ugly...they deserve what they get, right?.....but still, it's a very hard hole for one to pull themselves out of. My new client is going to have a very hard time, I already know this, and it gets me sad-like....because a life totally destroyed. Too many lives destroyed. I fucking have to stop, least I get too bummed out... Some Good News then ... I am clean years off of heavy opiate usage ... started around 1995 and started to quit after God healed My back in 2010 ... took awhile but I did it ... kratom keeps Me away from the hard stuff ... People don't care how much You know ... till they know how much You care ... |
| Malu nli
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| cosmicgypsy
(OP) User ID: 74619032 United States09/25/2020 09:06 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | My heart does go out to those dealing with addiction, especially trying to recover....and especially when they're dual diagnosed with mental health issues. Quoting: cosmicgypsy It has got to be fucking brutal.... I have a new methadone client. This person is one month on....such a tenuous time. The clinic rules are no alcohol, and my client knows this. They can't stop having a beer a night....although I suspect it's more. They got dropped for a UA, they panicked, and dipped the cup in the toilet water and gave that to them. They told me about this after - I'm their driver - because they knew I had been a substance abuse counselor in a methadone clinic. They wanted to know what was going to happen to them. Heh, after I reamed them a righteous new one for doing that, I told them they have cameras in the bathroom. I told them to never, ever do that again, that they would get dropped from the clinic in a heartbeat. Two days later?....the client did the same damn thing, but this time they were watching, and of course caught them. My client got very lucky, the doc let them dose, and they took another UA today....which they did the right way, they said. I cannot imagine the rat on the wheel in someone's head when they're deciding giving toilet water is going to save them from trouble....not once, but twice, and after being warned about the cameras and the full on stupidity of what they are doing....they f'n did it again. The only thing that speaks for this person is the addict in them....it's all they've got. Incredibly sad. And yes, I know we all know that smack is bad, the needle is dirty, pills make your life ugly...they deserve what they get, right?.....but still, it's a very hard hole for one to pull themselves out of. My new client is going to have a very hard time, I already know this, and it gets me sad-like....because a life totally destroyed. Too many lives destroyed. I fucking have to stop, least I get too bummed out... You're an angel... one with wheels instead of wings. And your armor is that huge heart full of compassion for others... I'm an intelligent and experienced empath and healer, that's all.....  "That's all"....heh, it took me a lifetime to get here to this point - almost 62 years - to know enough to begin wrangling the addict in my client.....  Of course, I know everything is on this person's shoulders....I can only offer the very best advice, and I am very willing to. I hope my client makes it....but there is a rough road ahead of them. [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
| beenthruthat
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| cosmicgypsy
(OP) User ID: 74619032 United States09/25/2020 09:13 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | My heart does go out to those dealing with addiction, especially trying to recover....and especially when they're dual diagnosed with mental health issues. Quoting: cosmicgypsy It has got to be fucking brutal.... I have a new methadone client. This person is one month on....such a tenuous time. The clinic rules are no alcohol, and my client knows this. They can't stop having a beer a night....although I suspect it's more. They got dropped for a UA, they panicked, and dipped the cup in the toilet water and gave that to them. They told me about this after - I'm their driver - because they knew I had been a substance abuse counselor in a methadone clinic. They wanted to know what was going to happen to them. Heh, after I reamed them a righteous new one for doing that, I told them they have cameras in the bathroom. I told them to never, ever do that again, that they would get dropped from the clinic in a heartbeat. Two days later?....the client did the same damn thing, but this time they were watching, and of course caught them. My client got very lucky, the doc let them dose, and they took another UA today....which they did the right way, they said. I cannot imagine the rat on the wheel in someone's head when they're deciding giving toilet water is going to save them from trouble....not once, but twice, and after being warned about the cameras and the full on stupidity of what they are doing....they f'n did it again. The only thing that speaks for this person is the addict in them....it's all they've got. Incredibly sad. And yes, I know we all know that smack is bad, the needle is dirty, pills make your life ugly...they deserve what they get, right?.....but still, it's a very hard hole for one to pull themselves out of. My new client is going to have a very hard time, I already know this, and it gets me sad-like....because a life totally destroyed. Too many lives destroyed. I fucking have to stop, least I get too bummed out... Some Good News then ... I am clean years off of heavy opiate usage ... started around 1995 and started to quit after God healed My back in 2010 ... took awhile but I did it ... kratom keeps Me away from the hard stuff ... You just did my heart so much good and put a big smile on my face....and I deeply honor what you did....because rotten-hard. My heart to yours, you winner....  You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
| LittleMe
I don’t want flowers when I die… User ID: 73993224 United States09/25/2020 09:15 PM  Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 77640440 United States09/25/2020 09:21 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | My heart does go out to those dealing with addiction, especially trying to recover....and especially when they're dual diagnosed with mental health issues. Quoting: cosmicgypsy It has got to be fucking brutal.... I have a new methadone client. This person is one month on....such a tenuous time. The clinic rules are no alcohol, and my client knows this. They can't stop having a beer a night....although I suspect it's more. They got dropped for a UA, they panicked, and dipped the cup in the toilet water and gave that to them. They told me about this after - I'm their driver - because they knew I had been a substance abuse counselor in a methadone clinic. They wanted to know what was going to happen to them. Heh, after I reamed them a righteous new one for doing that, I told them they have cameras in the bathroom. I told them to never, ever do that again, that they would get dropped from the clinic in a heartbeat. Two days later?....the client did the same damn thing, but this time they were watching, and of course caught them. My client got very lucky, the doc let them dose, and they took another UA today....which they did the right way, they said. I cannot imagine the rat on the wheel in someone's head when they're deciding giving toilet water is going to save them from trouble....not once, but twice, and after being warned about the cameras and the full on stupidity of what they are doing....they f'n did it again. The only thing that speaks for this person is the addict in them....it's all they've got. Incredibly sad. And yes, I know we all know that smack is bad, the needle is dirty, pills make your life ugly...they deserve what they get, right?.....but still, it's a very hard hole for one to pull themselves out of. My new client is going to have a very hard time, I already know this, and it gets me sad-like....because a life totally destroyed. Too many lives destroyed. I fucking have to stop, least I get too bummed out... You're an angel... one with wheels instead of wings. And your armor is that huge heart full of compassion for others... I'm an intelligent and experienced empath and healer, that's all..... "That's all"....heh, it took me a lifetime to get here to this point - almost 62 years - to know enough to begin wrangling the addict in my client.....:billlaugh: Of course, I know everything is on this person's shoulders....I can only offer the very best advice, and I am very willing to. I hope my client makes it....but there is a rough road ahead of them. [link to www.youtube.com (secure)]  |
| cosmicgypsy
(OP) User ID: 74619032 United States09/25/2020 09:21 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | For you beenthroughthat....although your "lady luck" was the creator.... I really do so think the person that overcomes any difficult challenge in life is a biggest winner....  I'm pulling out the Santana again, an oldie-- [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
| cosmicgypsy
(OP) User ID: 74619032 United States09/25/2020 09:31 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Janis!......  I now have my headphones on.....  Volume as loud as it can go....  I do love me some Janis....  [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
| Red John
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| cosmicgypsy
(OP) User ID: 74619032 United States09/25/2020 09:34 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 59310310 United States09/25/2020 09:38 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Janis!...... I now have my headphones on.....:kitty23: Volume as loud as it can go....:blwnawy: I do love me some Janis.... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] Definitely one of a kind. Love her voice |
| cosmicgypsy
(OP) User ID: 74619032 United States09/25/2020 09:39 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Boy howdy, I almost gave myself a seizure trying to blow all the dust off this one.....  Live Janis, 1968....when San Fran was still the City of Love. [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
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| cosmicgypsy
(OP) User ID: 74619032 United States09/25/2020 09:41 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Janis!...... I now have my headphones on..... Volume as loud as it can go.... I do love me some Janis.... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] Definitely one of a kind. Love her voice The woman sang with her soul.......  You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 77640440 United States09/25/2020 09:43 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | |
| beenthruthat
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| cosmicgypsy
(OP) User ID: 74619032 United States09/25/2020 09:52 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Hi, LittleMe and Red John...... Ahhhh, David Bowie....love him, such a great wealth of music he gave us! [link to www.youtube.com (secure)]  You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
| LittleMe
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| AdorableLittlepixie
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| cosmicgypsy
(OP) User ID: 74619032 United States09/25/2020 10:25 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Cosmicgypsy, this is for your new client: So very beautiful and moving.... While listening I was remembering a looong time ago I was in an old hotel next to where I worked. There was an old upright piano in the lobby, and I sat down and played and sang Amazing Grace....heh, people came out of their rooms to listen. Heh, it was probably the only time I was ever touched with grace while singing.....   I tell you that because of this-- That was a JOY to listen to. I love the piano. I took lessons for years and years....like ten, two of them classical. You really couldn't have chosen anything better for the moment, sister-love..... Also, I do think I have the capability to hook my phone into my kickass speaker system in my SUV....I am considering playing it for my client. I will have to bring a box of tissue, though, 'cause it's a tear jerker. That song reaches deep into my core, and I hope it would too my client. Love you so much.....  Last Edited by cosmicgypsy on 09/25/2020 10:25 PM You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
| Paranoiaaaaa
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| cosmicgypsy
(OP) User ID: 74619032 United States09/25/2020 10:37 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Happy Friday!.....  You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. -Buckminster Fuller ...I adapt to the unknown, under wandering stars I've grown, by myself, but not alone... [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 79376745 Canada09/25/2020 10:41 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | For you beenthroughthat....although your "lady luck" was the creator.... Quoting: cosmicgypsy I really do so think the person that overcomes any difficult challenge in life is a biggest winner.... I'm pulling out the Santana again, an oldie-- [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] cosmicgypsy, thanks for your empathetic compassion for those who struggle with duel diagnosis. Mine is mild in comparison to your client.. I only need a doorway and a safe place to land.. When a man has a safe environment in which to reconnect and grow, there will be healing and new horizons of endless possibilities.. My landing has been safeguarded.. |
