As a Black Man, I fear American society is fucking doomed (From all sides)

Listen OP.

I don't want to politicize this, but under Trump race relations have actually gotten much better.

As a whiteman, america has been doomed since 1492

Honestly, I feel as if my naivety is going to be my undoing.
I want to experience the world, I want to learn different cultures and languages and things not taught to me here in America but as time goes on the more I feel my world becoming smaller and more rigid.

I'm losing hope.

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A black conservative is always the smartest guy in the room.

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I fully expect for trolls, ignorant users and otherwise hateful replies. but I am posting this to get it off of my chest before I goto sleep.

I just witnessed an interaction between a Black Man and a White Officer and the shit broke me. as I am typing this, tears are welling up in my eyes.

The Black Man was under the influence of something (what exactly I am not sure) but I watch this all unfold and could tell the Black Man was high off of something. The Officer was called to the guy in his car. The White Officer was more than bending over backwards to not cause another shooting; the Black Man was continually moving around in his car, sticking his hands out of the window and even attempted to climb out of the driver side window.

The entire time the White Officer was speaking to him calmly, speaking to him with respect, Never once put his hand on his weapon - just had his flash light on the guy and also his chest camera. now this is where things got almost dicey,

The Black Man said he needed to piss, and even started fumbling around in his car. the man then opens his passenger side door and gets out of the vehicle, all the time this is happening the White officer kept telling him "Stop" and even told him "Man, You're going to escalate this. Please stop".

The Officer then allows the man to take a piss, and tells him "Ok, you can take a piss. but piss right there". After the man pisses he tries to evade the officer, then he took off running.

The situation ended in no shots fired, no injuries or anything. but this is what hurts my heart,

Had this situation went left, he (the Black Man) would've been another name and face used by protestors to claim further racism and prejudices. no one would've want to hear the officer's side, and me personally - I feel this specific officer went above and beyond his means to 'bend over backwards' for this man and part of me knows it is because of the increase scrutiny that officer have upon them.

The thing that angers me, if this had turned into a shooting and me being a Black Man myself - If I were to speak up in the White officer's defense, I would be called a "Coon" or an "Uncle Tom" and other derogatory terms by my own group. and no one on my 'side' would've heard me out and listened to how this White officer tried his best to not shoot another Black person.

I hate humanity,
I have little to no faith that there is any chance this country will not self implode.
I want to escape this society and go live in the woods with books and never speak to another human soul ever again.
my emotional state right now is not good,
and I sincerely believe the longer I live in this corrupt and fucked up society the more it will corrupt me.

As I've said on the onset to this post; I fully anticipate very negative and hateful replies but I posted this mainly for the following reasons;

A. Not all situations is as cut and dry as the news makes it.
B. If you were not at a cop shooting, even with the camera footage they splice and edit for news prime-time, you should never automatically judge either side
C. For the Good officers who frequent this forum, regardless of your ethnicity - some citizens realize the tough position you're placed in
D. To my fellow Black Men and Women, some of us have been unjustly murdered but there is some of us who also unnecessarily escalated the situation and caused themselves to be hurt

Its extremely difficult for me to compartmentalize my feelings as I know there is Good and Bad on both sides. and it's going to break what little humanity I have left attempting to try and make this shit make sense.

Hopefully this post helps me defuse the hurt and frustration I currently feel.

I'm hanging on by a very thin thread.
I was never raised to judge on skin color but even doing this leads me into turmoil and trouble in some manner.
This world is doing a number on me.

Says the guy playing the role of Racist White Man in the early stages of the scripted race war...

You say that but you know that the powers that be have engineered the race wars.

Wrong, as a white guy I say that if blacks were never brought to this country we would have just simply found another difference i.e. hair color, eye color, tall, short, you name it, it's simply in our nature.

Man isn't that the truth.

Wrong, as a white guy I say that if blacks were never brought to this country we would have just simply found another difference i.e. hair color, eye color, tall, short, you name it, it's simply in our nature.

Theodore Kazinsky "the uni bomber" was a trailblazer and way ahead of his time

I fully expect for trolls, ignorant users and otherwise hateful replies. but I am posting this to get it off of my chest before I goto sleep.

I just witnessed an interaction between a Black Man and a White Officer and the shit broke me. as I am typing this, tears are welling up in my eyes.

The Black Man was under the influence of something (what exactly I am not sure) but I watch this all unfold and could tell the Black Man was high off of something. The Officer was called to the guy in his car. The White Officer was more than bending over backwards to not cause another shooting; the Black Man was continually moving around in his car, sticking his hands out of the window and even attempted to climb out of the driver side window.

The entire time the White Officer was speaking to him calmly, speaking to him with respect, Never once put his hand on his weapon - just had his flash light on the guy and also his chest camera. now this is where things got almost dicey,

The Black Man said he needed to piss, and even started fumbling around in his car. the man then opens his passenger side door and gets out of the vehicle, all the time this is happening the White officer kept telling him "Stop" and even told him "Man, You're going to escalate this. Please stop".

The Officer then allows the man to take a piss, and tells him "Ok, you can take a piss. but piss right there". After the man pisses he tries to evade the officer, then he took off running.

The situation ended in no shots fired, no injuries or anything. but this is what hurts my heart,

Had this situation went left, he (the Black Man) would've been another name and face used by protestors to claim further racism and prejudices. no one would've want to hear the officer's side, and me personally - I feel this specific officer went above and beyond his means to 'bend over backwards' for this man and part of me knows it is because of the increase scrutiny that officer have upon them.

The thing that angers me, if this had turned into a shooting and me being a Black Man myself - If I were to speak up in the White officer's defense, I would be called a "Coon" or an "Uncle Tom" and other derogatory terms by my own group. and no one on my 'side' would've heard me out and listened to how this White officer tried his best to not shoot another Black person.

I hate humanity,
I have little to no faith that there is any chance this country will not self implode.
I want to escape this society and go live in the woods with books and never speak to another human soul ever again.
my emotional state right now is not good,
and I sincerely believe the longer I live in this corrupt and fucked up society the more it will corrupt me.

As I've said on the onset to this post; I fully anticipate very negative and hateful replies but I posted this mainly for the following reasons;

A. Not all situations is as cut and dry as the news makes it.
B. If you were not at a cop shooting, even with the camera footage they splice and edit for news prime-time, you should never automatically judge either side
C. For the Good officers who frequent this forum, regardless of your ethnicity - some citizens realize the tough position you're placed in
D. To my fellow Black Men and Women, some of us have been unjustly murdered but there is some of us who also unnecessarily escalated the situation and caused themselves to be hurt

Its extremely difficult for me to compartmentalize my feelings as I know there is Good and Bad on both sides. and it's going to break what little humanity I have left attempting to try and make this shit make sense.

Hopefully this post helps me defuse the hurt and frustration I currently feel.

How many white guys are "under the influence of something (what exactly I am not sure)"

But never get pulled over due to profiling?

It's hard to tell. Not zero, but not as many as the media wants you to believe.

But its the behavior after being pulled over that makes all the difference.

Thanks for sharing.

the Reason that Jesus Christ came to this earth is to tell us that there is another life beyond this one. A glorious one, where all those who are decent to each other and believe in the ways of Christ will live together for eternity.

we get so wrapped up in the things that go on in front of our face we very rarely stop to think about this. Jesus made it clear several times in the bible that this world has no meaning. It is only the next world that matters. No matter what craziness happens in the world, just focus on working on your spirit and ignore the world around you on earth. It is difficult sometimes, i know. However this is why we are here. To learn how to become citizens of heaven.

Hang in there, OP! Much love!

Candace Owens has a book out. Might be a helpful read.

Also, you can't go wrong with the wisdom of Thomas Sowell, wisest man in America. And also black.

It's hard to tell. Not zero, but not as many as the media wants you to believe.

But its the behavior after being pulled over that makes all the difference.