An old co-worker... A Sergeant of mine, just killed himself.

Some would also call it cowardliness.

This subject is huge, cause it has multiple angles.

See it as a game character, how many times have you pressed the reset character button, in life you cannot press it, you can only fight to live or be brave or coward and die by your own hand.

Klingons in Startrek for example could never live if they were dysfunctional as warriors and they preferred to kill themself's. But that is on a movie, on the other hand, Stephen Hawkins was a vegetable and they kept him alive and was communicating through brain waves?, and supposedly was solving matters of the universe and not only...but was it his choice or he was just a tool for the rest World, and if it was his choice, was it normal ? or to the edge?

Suicide is not black and white.

Life is not black and white.

Death is just empty, as a mortal body and after.

And is there a connection between life and the after? that is the question.

To live or not to live, which someone told it at past, was all about that, the connection, is there a connection?

and if there is a connection, then what connection could those that just come and go in a glance, have ?

They say, make the best out of the opportunity you were given, cause lot do not have it, isn't that selfish and very mortal? Doesn't apply to after death at all, it is made up, or is it not?

To live or not to live, that is the actual question.

those that do not have the opportunity to live, they came and instantly dies or after some days, what peace could they accomplish, what opportunity to make the best out of what they were given?, so is the question valid?

valid for those that fit inside the accepted narrative, the living with chances of survival and then having on their shoulders the cross of life and what comes with it, maybe then it is not valid for those that just appear and disappear out of mistake? or just out of statistics? or out of luck or intentionally since humans can bring to life without the normal procedures.

To live or not to live, very selfish, very made up, or not?

Have taken up the space, apologies, but...there is always a but.

To live or not to live, that is the question, why should we think of that at all, it fits to the normal parameters that are established for fail-safe reasons through the dna and that is the way it is, there is no actual question therefore that is valid.

To live or not to live is not a question.

It is a way to de activate for an instance the fail-safe and think out of the box, which cannot stay for long de activated, because it is out of life.

Then there is the common approach that is believed by the most, play by the game, do not give up, we won't give it to you on the plate, you have to put effort to succeed, see those that succeeded against all odds?, they played by the game and they won, do not ask for something better when you gave up on the game and the rules of the game.

Maybe some do not want to play by the game, do not even to get involved in the game, then the common approach by the lot is, ok, do not play by the game, make your own rules and make your own game, still if you give up then you deserve nothing other than a pity of your own self and the opportunity that you shuttered in pieces because you are weak.

Ok, good, but it is a game still, why is it a game?

We just want to live! ok, then the common approach that is believed by the most is, ok, since you want to just live, take the mountains and live in a cave and fuck off...

LOL!

So the actual sentence to live or not to live that is not a question is instantly answering the connection with the after life, which is none and secondly it answers itself, which is to deactivate the fail safe permanently. Living out of the game but inside, an empty existence for the game but not empty for life.

No matter your feelings about it, I’m sorry that you just experienced a loss in your life.

I know that feeling of indifference and you’re right, it is rather odd.