I must have picked this up op GLP over 16 years ago, because when my mother was dying, I whispered in her ear to not go into the light.

Even though she didn't love me and had hurt me, I still told her not to go into the light. I told her she will see a dark void, and to go towards that.

I hope I was right as I intend to do the same thing.

The Men in my family will likely all traverse the Universe for the eons, feeling the pain they caused others.

I am also not convinced Suicide makes any difference at all. You'll see the same light and the same void.