sorry about posting spam the other day.

Drunk posting on this site is costly, but fun....

with the "new normal" we are stepping into.

i just wanna say- theres no excuse for me acting out- first of all.

secondly, this whole new normal... well its affecting the people with "mental illness" in a different way than others.


im only a shell of my former self. the psyche performed some kind of system restore not too long ago.. i now boot into safe mode each day.

limited emotional response. clouded thinking. almost as if the subconscious has re routed my synapses to operate on power saving mode.


so im used to law and order and doing my best to behave correctly in society. thats what ive been calibrating for this whole time.

now, in clown world. the mentally ill should be having the hardest time, but for me i can deal with this new world easily. i dont struggle with the rules. restrictions. limited movement etc. im used to that.

but what i cant get used to is this new from of etiquette.



probably soon, people like me will get rounded up and put into a labor camp or something i bet. i know im one of the undesirables.

just need to adapt and develop new strategies for surviving in this world.

right now its seems like most people are having extra thoughts, extra emotions. im actually having less emotions, less thoughts. mostly in a state of vibrating, buzzing chakras and inner contemplation of abstract concepts that cant be put into words.

meanwhile out there. clown world. like one big mandela effect.