Notes from an "alternate universe": The Revelation of the Real World

Watching children and their natural sense for these things has been a very great honor and humbling experience for me. I didn’t fully appreciate how much our society endeavors to crush our Spirit as we ‘mature’ until watching it from this angle.
Which isn’t to say that I will have him take on a whole-house redecoration project given his current aesthetics but I don’t doubt I might find myself better off if I did.





Really interesting. I did catch the young boy - admittedly because I was zooming in on the dog’s expression - and was curious so thank you for the context :)

action > understanding

We have all the information we need to make rational decisions for the rest of our lives, without any further understanding. You understand as much as you need to make those choices, while most of the important things we experience automatically without really knowing how or why, like breathing.

The 'need to understand' could just be the brain's method of delaying action. The more you understood, the more questions you would have. An understanding of everything is an understanding of how perspective works, and that is quite simple: you experience how you interpret reality.

Some interesting research...

A research team led by faculty at the Florida State University College of Medicine found the COVID-19 pandemic appeared to cause personality changes, especially in younger adults.
...
The changes in younger adults (study participants younger than 30) showed disrupted maturity, as exhibited by increased neuroticism and decreased agreeableness and conscientiousness

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What does losing your mind look like though?

An interesting transformation of a word:
[link to www.etymonline.com (secure)]

Yes.. as we 'mature' into all the things that make populations easier to govern. Populations that refuse self-regulation for all the toys and wonders that a common governance system brings.


Sure. I'm very interested in exploring how our choices in the last few centuries have brought us to today.

Like a random scene from any city across the world. When our brains, portals to our minds, become the tools of others.

"That naughty, nice girl was a passenger by the window"

could have meant, "The poor, ignorant boy passed by the window on foot"

(with 'girl' meaning a young person)

Would you say this another way?



At the time and for many years after I would say I pushed away my roots. My family. My religious upbringing. My childhood friends. Everything that I knew to be me at the time.

I don’t feel that way about now though.

If I had to pick something relevant to then and now, I would say it would be certain aspects of myself and my experience.

What do you mean by ‘the desire is self-conditioned’?

How does one un-condition?

Thanks for the reality check

Now that’s some homework

I appreciate your words of late. They are reminding me. They’ve been like a swift kick in the a$$ to get out of my own way. To man up and take responsibility for where I find myself right now. Having a hard year is no excuse. I know better.

That is an interesting study. I wonder if they’ll ever know the full impact this has had on the youngest generation.

I have a friend who is Covid crazy. Masking for days and days. Her youngest is now 2 years old and doesn’t speak a word. I hung out with him yesterday and he is a sweet boy just very minimal communication skills.

Will the youngest among us have the least trouble because it will be all they have known? The new normal?

What, may I ask, brought your attention to this particular aspect of altered history? Was there a specific object that escaped augmentation or instance in literature that caused you to start tugging at the loose thread before this all came together for you?

I suppose I would ask the same of many things on the recent sites, the ‘missing’ thousand years in particular.

Or was it something you kind of knew all at once that you were able to go back and find traces of?

My best friend sent me this video of the 1933 Chicago’s World Fair. Very interesting. The Pageantry, the symbolism incorporated.

Try this out:

I appreciate your words of late. They remind me. They’ve been instrumental in understanding what's going on. Of course I am where I am due to me, how could it be otherwise? This year has been interesting, let's make it a satisfactory ending! I'm here to make that ending, and forever grateful to experience that. It'll weave together into something lovely.

Every word counts!
If writing such things feels off and strange, then it helps to focus on what pulses Loving within you, in the full sense of the word.
Earlier you referenced your Grateful Dead concerts; they fill you with a loving perspective of the world.

It would be worth to imagine walking through those fields as you walk through your dwelling, and transmit whatever essence that you discover in the field onto a vine flowing down the wall, into a spoon cradled in your hand, into a stock of food and a brightened day looking out the kitchen window.

Unsolicited advice, so feel free to ignore it :-)

I could not find "That naughty, nice girl was a passenger by the window" within the link, but I don't think I need to.

Thinking in opposites this way is interesting.
The other reversals make sense, but would be curious on why you chose the words "ignorant" and "poor" in contrast with "naughty" and "nice"

Thank you for the kind words/advice. I appreciate your perspective on it :)

It’s time for me to soften. Be kinder to myself first and all this otherness will fall in line. It’s like a tight muscle that needs a good, gentle stretch.

When a person doesn't really want to let something go (that they think would look 'bad' holding onto) their brains would create dramas as to why they cannot.

When a person doesn't really want to do something (that they think would look 'good' doing) their brains would create dramas as to why they cannot.

for examples,

'I can't stop eating junk food. Healthy food is so expensive'

"I can't teach myself those things. i'm not as smart as others."

"I can't leave her after that. She's all I have."

"There's no way I could just shop locally. Stores around here don't have the stuff I need."

"Giving up my prescriptions would be impossible right now. They help me to relax in times of stress."

For them, the excuse would seem very real. They wouldn't want to think of it critically because there isn't much to support the excuse.


Would part of that be because you knew that they would not approve of the choices you made?

<<I don’t feel that way about now though>> could be your subconscious telling your brain that you don't need to think about it because you feel more accepting or feel differently about those things than you did before, so now everything is okay.

To make your conscious mind think it is resolved when it may not be.

Did the employees of an infamous 3-letter agency convince you and many other young people at the time to join a cult (a new 'family') and ply you with psychoactive agents and that your parents, grandparents, and ancestors could never understand how you supposedly felt? Did they want you to adopt their approved sense of reality?

Did you push yourself away from home because you felt that you would be judged? If so, has this fear of judgement been resolved?

The desire is just made up out of thin air to fill a gap in the logical narrative.

Change your narrative and the desire suddenly disappears. Because it was never there in the first place :)

"Jake harmed himself several times a day with ________ because he thought that he was ____________ because he feelings seemed real. But now that he _________, he doesn't do that anymore."

When the ability of learning to read, and being exposed to, facial expressions is hindered, children are far more likely to become psychopathic. A new class of society is being created right before our eyes. Perhaps a new kind of human being.

You're most welcome.
Your writing here better reflects the stretching you're seeking.
Perhaps it comes natural to you!
So the words sway around and paint the world in a different light.

They absolutely did not approve of the choices I made. They know next to nothing about most of them. They didn’t want to know. I took such a different path than my sisters.



I guess we’ll see. My parents and I have a great relationship now. I’m happy about moving back down south and being closer to them. It was a journey getting here. But my relationship to my past feels pretty clean.



You are 100% correct. For any interested, here’s a link to an article titled:
Manufacturing the Deadhead: A Product of Social Engineering… by Joe Atwill and Jan Irvin

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I first read it in 2013 and my relationship to the music began to shift. It really shifted for me in 2020.

Now, I’m done with it all.

Took me long enough.



For sure. At that time, I felt like God was judging me, my parents were judging me, my sisters. If they only knew half the stuff I was up to they would’ve judged me harshly.

I’m not up to any shenanigans like I used to be. Who I am now is pretty much out in the open. I feel accepted for who I am.

I’m sure that fear of judgement lies dormant waiting to rear its head, given the opportunity.

F*^#. That makes me really sad. And mad.

Is there any hope for them?

Builder, what do think of the Holy Ghost? Is it real, is talking in tongues real?

Maybe you could play peek-a-boo with the kiddo! Maybe you already did!

We did and lots of other things as well. We took a walk and he kept pointing at everything for me to identify. He’s eager to talk. I can tell. But he doesn’t really try to at all. It was interesting to observe.

The story unfolds. The art is less clear and some hidden explanations regarding the complexities of (lol) "troll romance" are excluded. Needless to say it is an ultimate standoff for these various blood casted trolls with the grandcanyon-esque, high relevance ancestral counterparts exuding dominance on their own difficult to understand feelings of hatred and pity and friendship and responsibility(?) that are subject to dynamics and change if unstable.

They face off....and see how it ends.



Some are more comfortable in meaningless existence. The story is extremely convoluted and in some ways can be understood as the process of finding meaning anyway. It is growing up? Or becoming an adult, who seem so large as counterparts of ancestry. Yet growing up, how godly can we get? Now that's not a pun, but it could be.

I do not thrive in meaninglessness, but in the meaningless times it helped to have a friend, even a virtual friend, someone I never met, that showed me they understood. This story struggled to get it's final outcome and, out of context, doesn't look like much. So here's a different artwork by the same animator who helped conclude the story. It captures a moment of something ephemeral, dreamy, godlike, innocent and yet - audacious; precocious; perspicacious.

Gamzee (the angry clown) is my favorite character and Karkat (his only friend) is my favorite character. The rest of them are my favorite characters. I never finished the story, to be honest. I outgrew it while it was released a bit too slow. I think the guy who made the story also outgrew it. Certainly, none of us were the same again. Even me.

I say the kids are alright. I think they are going to be okay. It might not be easy to understand them. Humanity isn't weak, though. We are the most resilient to exist at all. We bear a cosmos on our shoulders heavier than Atlas can shrug. We rise from deeper than any bottomless abyss. We're okay. I..believe in us. Kinda~

<<Melanin, the human chlorophyll


[link to www.humanphotosynthesis.biz]


This is very interesting. Even ATP/glucose as our main sources of energy can't be trusted and is nothing but theory. No wonder we have so many sick people, we're not even playing with anything close to a full deck!

Anyway, it's interesting that Melanin is considered the human chlorophyll, when chlorophyll itself is identical to a red blood cell with magnesium in its center instead of iron.

I've also always thought it was weird how oxidation is often suspect in the creation of dis-ease, and yet we breathe oxygen in all day. The old adage 'too much of anything can kill you' can be used in the case of water or oxygen. But then if you're not taking in enough to kill you, doesn't it make sense that it's still killing you slowly? lol sheesh (that was more rhetorical).

This website you linked sells drops to aid in the human photosynthesis process. Have you tried them?

Also a few general questions, are you familiar with Rudolf Steiner's suggestions that there is an 8th Sphere that we have created as a result of the negative influences we've experienced for so many years? And that the Luciferian influence was followed by the Christ influence, which is currently making way for the Ahrimanic influence (coldness, technological take over, viruses and disease, Tech 'God', etc)? And that this Ahrimanic figure will how him/herself in person, and will be the anti-Christ?

Lastly, you do an amazing job at explaining reality in a way that's both relatable and understandable. Thank you for taking the energy to do this for us. Your information kind of parallels Walter and Lao Russell but in much more detail. You've mentioned you do this for your own personal growth too. I do hope you are proud of your efforts.