i've had this weird feeling or thought for the last 2 days

it's in my groin area...joking lol. nah it's this thought or feeling "this future has played out 67 times so far."

it's not me nor the tao. it feels like a thing you would place on the top shelf out of the way or in the top shelf in a closet for example.

and with it i feel like i'm trying to play catchup in order to protect/save myself from something...i don't know,