I am a little Less afraid to Die. Had a Lucid Dream where I went to Orion seeking Jesus in a body of Much Vibration.

There was someone else, kind of off to the side like, he/she/it was the first and only being I met yet I had a knowledge of identity, not de ja vu, just knowingness of this person's function, so I said

I want to see jesus and whooooosssshhh.

Then a fear that I couldn't return from such a vast journey sent me earthwards to the dregs of a used up meat suitcase.

Poof. Stunned that I didn't land inside myself backwards and there is something peculiar about the astral body magnetically reattaching it's cephalod fibers with flesh.

You will have to be born live and die as a Black person because no White people are let in.

I'm not making that up.

I have always felt like there is something special about that constellation but I have no idea why. Just an intuitive thing that tells me regularly.

You can feel how ever you want. No soul that occupies a White body can get in as that is a punishment.

Ye must be born again...only Black this time.

I used to feel sorry for myself and thought I was notifying the world of my self crucifixion by inviting them to pity me.

Then I got seriously smoochy with narcissistic tendencies.

Then I tried anger and felonies, then the sabotage of stifling creativity, then I did a stint of self improvement, then I gave my power away, then I relapsed into more anger and sadness.

I think right about in the middle of existential crisis number four and twelve gallons of vodka I realized I'm going to Die without knowing a darn thing.


So I provoked some, tested a few, dabbled as a flaneuring dilettante, broke one bone and two curses, rebounded in the light a little less convinced, and then THEY showed up and helped me with questing and ingathering, grounding and reformatting....hope you don't limit yourself to the amount of melanin in your epidermis:)

How may we honor each other in this communication?


I vote yes for your life choices and desire to connect with the light that guides you through others still.